a l o n e

was looking through some of my friends photos.
and felt something was missing.

i was missing...
that class thinging...
that close class friend...

if you wan to say i got a lot of friend.
yes i do.
loads of them.
coming from many different class.
friends = alot.

but i miss that class unity.
like in year 1.
where i only have one class
and have to stick to them all your semester.
which is a good thing.
great friendship develop through out the whole semester.

but now...
haiz....

after 4 weeks,
still having that weird moments in class.
feels as if everyday is first day in class.
like i jus know you when i see you in class once a week.
some of them have their own clique in class.

there is no like class outing.
or like taking photos.
class cam whoring.


i think i am tired of making friends.
i think its more of tired of approaching.
like when changing team,
have to start conversation.
coz everyone is like so serious.
some are like living in their own world.
like..
i dono..

friendship feels like touch and go.
one moment was hahahahaha
next moment, hi, hello, hey


suddenly this depressed feeling came about.
i just miss those days in year 1.
seriously.

the feeling of im looking forward to go school.
the feeling of i want to meet my classmates.
the feeling of excitement to class
the feeling of laughter felling the atmosphere
the feeling of i can be whatever i want to be
the feeling of i know they know me
the feeling of i know they know i am not crazy when i do some crazy stuff
those feeling of comfort in class.



...

sometimes i look at you and wonder...
what is your point.
why are you here.
how did you come here.
how do you feel about here.
who ask you to be here
why didnt you find other alternative

to me,
you life seems meaningless.
seems stupid.
seems useless.
seems like junk.
seems like huh???



i seriously wonder whats in you mind.


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PRINce sYAFiqJ