here i go again

I may not happen.

But for some reason i still believe in us.

I dont know why.

possibly the reason why we reconcile.

i still see hope in us.

frankly speaking.

you are no where near my' ideal partner'.

pretty much nothing to what i want.

i dont see what i want in you.

but for some reason why,

i still believe in us.

i just cant explain it.

i just cant describe it.

i just cant tell what is it.

because i seriously dont know what it is.

i questioned myself,

what is it that you have that make me want you so much?

i cant answer that question.

but i know there is something.

there is a ray of light.

 which i adore to it for no reason.

i dont know if its possible for us to happen.

now we are just 'nothing'

i dont know if i should try to start the ball rolling.

or just leave it as it is.

we were so happy when we were together.

but when we were apart.

it seems like the world turn around 180 degree.

like we are enemies.

nothing between us were like butterflies and rainbows and everything nice.

its more like world war two.

so i see possibility in us

but its like i have to dig them out.

we have to dig them out.

we have to go through rough times

go through various obstacle

go through the thunderstorm

go through the stormy seas

go through ...

i have a strong feeling that it is not possible for us to happen.

but we never know if we never try.

now i am just going to leave us as it is.

you.

and

me.

we shall go our separate ways again.

just like history.

and see what the future have for us.

 

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i shall take this time to explore.

my life.

the world.

my world.

see what i can do for my future.

see what i can do for the future.

i have dreams.

i use to have dreams.

 

but my dreams are just mere shadows.

let me find the light.

i may not shine the light 

i may not be able to shine the light

but at least i know ive got something to make my dreams come true.

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commitment

talk about love.

i love dancing.

seriously!

ii have no problem committing myself to dance.

but i dont know if i can commit myself to 

love.

seriously!

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where

i dont know what we are.

i dont know where we are.

one thing i know.

we are

lost.

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MDNA girl gone wild

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Boyfriend

Whats happening to this world???

I know a friend who have the complete package but no Girlfriend.

WHAT THE!!!

This post may sound a little gay but bare with me.

This friend of mine is

1. Good looking.

On the scale of 10, id rate him 6.5

A chinese guy with big eyes and i believe he owns a pair of dimple.

2. Good body.

A nice height.

Body is looks fit.

3. He watches his diet!

4. He have charisma.

The way he stands.

The way he talks.

What ever about him,

just gives out that

aura!

hahha

5. Friendly

6. He got brain!

7. He is not an Ah Beng. 

NO WHERE NEAR THAT!

I think he somehow owns almost everything, what i assume every girl want in a guy.

Unfortunately

he is single!

BLOODY HELL!

And on the other side,

many of my friends who 

dont have the look

dont have the charisma or something

pretty nerdy

i dont know if they got brains or not

 some are like ah bengs

They have girlfriend!

HELLO!!!

GIRLS!!!

are you girls opening your eyes???

I am looking at a diamond here!

But he is NOT taken!

I look at the rubbish, they are all filled with the good stuff.
But this diamond here is..

URGH!!!

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acne

bad acne.

serious bad acne.

sad.

going to see the doctor soon.

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MURSE

i just got myself a Murse!

aka MAN PURSE!

I think ill be loving it.

just something i need when i go out.

I have problem going out just with my wallet, mp3 and handphone.

Reason being,

my wallet contain a lot of rubbish.

aka receipts!!!

i cant be bothered to clear them.

so its kinda fat!

i got my mp3.

i dont like to have it in my pocket coz its pretty big after the earpiece are rolled up around the mp3.

and i will need to bring tissue.

WET and DRY!

hahah

they will come in handy!

these are the most important ones.

additional stuff like

water bottle.

gosh! singapore is so hot.

and i get thirsty easily.

umbrella.

the weather is unpredictable.

cardigans.

im pretty skinny with thin skin.

sometimes in the bus or train it can be very cold.

or watching movie.

it will help to keep me warm and fuzzy!

yeah!

the murse is pretty big though.

if u see it its the size of my chest.

im not saying my chest is big.

but big for a hand held purse.

its a PURSE for god sake.

suppose to be small and compact.

but oh well.

they can hold shits!

and i love it!

what more its in leather!!!

*KINKY!!!*

hahaha

nah...

black leather.

a sign of masculinity.

simple.

can match with almost anything i want to wear.

so yah.

why should i not love it?

what more its only $18!

yes!

to me its kinda a wee bit expensive.

but i think its wort it.

got it at chong pang.

hahah

dont tell people that i got it there.

its suppose to look pretty expensive.

hmm..

i dont think its expensive.

but i can say it looks pretty VINTAGE.

yeah!

thats the word.

 coz no young man would carry it.

u will only see old man carrying it.

Thats where i get my inspiration from.

Coz i say this pretty old man carrying something like that.

and i was like eh?!

dats cool.

i also say a young man carrying a murse and i was like eh?

dats cooler.

so.

maybe ill start this Murse thing.

 hahhaha

TRENDSETTER!!!

i make people FOLLOW ME!

not i follow people.

hahhaha

*okok, i just followed some old man with a murse*

but still.

its not in trend right now.

so yup. 

....

 whats in trend now is the Navajo prints.

or should i say the tribal prints.

 those kind of prints.

i was so inlove with them

want to buy those kind of printed shirt.

BUT!

i changed my mind.

its too common now!

TOO TYPICAL!

all the aha bengs are wearing it!

URGH!

i have it when the bengs and the mats dominate a certain kind of fashion that i love.

irritating!

URGH!!!

now i have to find an alternative.

one option is animal prints.

its kinda wide spread.

but not as bad as the navajo prints.

another option is this!



D&G S/S 2012 collection.

something i think the bengs and mats wont go for!

HA!

one thing i need is.
TO BE DIFFERENT!
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POC

And yes.

I have finally Passed Out from my course.

I am no more a trainee.

No more botak hair!!!

Now I am posted to Tuas.

TUAS NAVAL BASE

Yup.
That is where my life will be.

Pretty much another chapter of my NS life.
Or i shall say the last chapter?

Chapter One
BMT- Tekong

Chapter Two
Trainee/ Private- 2PDF

Chapter Three
Trainee/ Private- Changi Naval Base

Chapter Four/ Final
Private/ Lance Corporal/ Copral- Tuas Naval Base


I must say that I am pretty dissapointed that I didnt get platoon best.
I expected that.
But I somehow was aiming for that.

Frankly speaking,
When in 2PDF i didnt know of anything of platoon best or course best.
 Only somewhere at the end of the course.

Then when going to CNB (Changi Naval Base),
I pretty much want to grab that platoon best title.
I know i have a competition.
However, half way through, i had like 50 50 thinking of becoming platoon best.
One reason is that becoming the platoon best, ill go to platoon one after passing ut.
and platoon one is like the worst place to be in.

so thats why.
and further more,
i wasnt outspoken enough.

i have to admit that i am pretty introvert.
i didnt speak out much.
i want to but i dont know why.
sometimes i just can be bothered.
sometimes i sigh...

hahha

oh well.
its over.

i just want it coz it would look nice on my resume or portfolio.
but its ok.

I can still aim for CFC!
Corporal First Class.
hahaha

On another note of becoming CFC,
my reservice will be extended, additional 5 years.
SIGH!!!!

oh well.
we will see how things are.

...

on the bright side.
i can grow my  hair now!
WOOHHOO!!!

I cant wait to get back my old hair.
yes i know i am not allowed to keep long hair.
but it will be nice to at least have hair to style
and NOT looking like some NSF!

hahaha

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hot NOT

Guess what i'm trying to be?

HOT.

*FAIL!!*

I am trying to be hot.

When im not.

*roll eyes*

Its like orange trying to be an apple.

Butterfly trying to be a fish.

Singapore trying to be Antarctica.

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My love

Dance

Fashion

Shoe

Perfume

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Ciara- Promise

Come enjoy the life
Baby take a ride
I just wanna vibe with you, you
Baby you and I can have a good time
Tell me what you like
  

 Now listen
I've been single for a while now
And I've been kind of lonely
But I'm looking for somebody to talk to,
Love me, someone who can hold me,
Is that you?

I'm looking for somebody I can call boo
Looking for the only one that I can give my all to
Tell me if it's you, you, you
What you wanna do, do, do
Make your move
You can be my teacher
I'll do homework
You can give me extra credit, baby
I'll do more work
What you wanna do, do, do
Now it's me and you, you, you
Make a move

This mood is so right
It feels so right
You can be my prince
My knight
You can be my superman
Save me here I am

'Cause baby
There's nothing I won't do
To spend my life with you
I'll give my all to you
I promise that I will never lie to you boy
There's nothing I won't do
To spend my life with you
I'll give my all to you
I promise that I will never lie to you boy

You and me together
Picture perfect
I'll spend all my money all my time
Because you're worth it
It's just me and you, you, you
What you wanna do, do, do
Make a move
Call me mama, spoil you like a baby
Thinking about you, dreaming about you
Got me going crazy
What you wanna do, do, do
Now it's me and you, you, you
Make a move

This mood is so right
It feels so right
You can be my prince
My knight
You can be my superman
Save me here I am

Baby
There's nothing I won't do
To spend my life with you
I'll give my all to you
I promise that I will never lie to you boy
There's nothing I won't do
To spend my life with you
I'll give my all to you
I promise that I will never lie to you boy

I mean everything that I say
From the bottom of my heart
I will never, never ever hurt you
I open my heart

Open my heart
Give it to you
Tell the whole world that I'm in love with you
Whatever you want
Baby I'll do
I know I don't want nobody else but you

There's nothing I won't do
To spend my life with you
I'll give my all to you
I promise that I will never lie to you boy
There's nothing I won't do
To spend my life with you
I'll give my all to you
I promise that I will never lie to you boy 

This song is seriously in tune with me now.

Aside the 'shitty' things ive went through.

I am pretty much looking for some i can my heart to.

Like seriously.

I may not be so ready but i will never be ready.

Can somebody claim this prize here?

*i know, i sound pretty desperate here.

nonetheless, how about 'friends for benefit'?

not sex benefit but emotional benefit*

 

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Sea Soldier Course

Passing out of my course soon.

Going to miss these people.

Shield section.

Pretty much we were the best!

hahhaah

Seriously,

without them,

i dont know how my life will be in camp.

Pretty much they are the only thing that i look forward to when book in.

Nothing else.

ok.

maybe besides the running and swimming.

Its them that makes the whole course a fun one.

So many jokers around.

I can smile each and every single day.

No no.

They never fail to make me laugh everyday.

Seriously!

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Double down

I want to eat KFC's

Zinger Double Down!

Fattening

but i LIKE!!

I need to get fatER!

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i think im HOT

im sorry.

but i think this photo of mine is just too hot!

i just love how my jaw line is shaped.

my hair.

my eyes.

so into so much focus.

and i love the most,

my collar bones!

woohoo!

sexy!

everytime i look at it,

i go like

omg.

cant believe its me.

hahaha

despite the few or a lot of photoshopped touched up,

i still love it man!

look at it closely,

dont i have a potential to be  model???

heheheh

nah..

too skinny

too short.

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