Are you ready? coz im not.

I have this fear.
This phobia.
This dislike.

about love.
actually not about love.
its more about relationship.
actually not really about relationship.
its more about the people who are in the relationship.

Its about.
Me and You.
About Me and You going against each other.

Everytime I hear couple quarreling,
I will be like,
oh my...

*roll eyes*

Must I go through that if I were to enter the relationship?
Must I quarell?
Is it necessary?
Must we go against each other because of certain matter?

sigh...

that is what i do not want to face in a relationship.
I know its inevitable to

my thinking is like,
"What ever lah! If you want to be with me, then be with me.
I can't be bothered quarreling.
If you want to break up, go ahead.
I shall not was my time facing unhappiness.
Life is too short to be in misery."

Well,
one thing for sure,
if ever human being's mind set is like that,
everyone will be single forever.


Maybe for now,
me being single and inexperience in relationship,
may face things that way.
Probably I will get a different view of the city if i were in someone else house.

For now,
though I am yearning for that somebody.
Have this strong desire to be drenched in love.

I am still not ready.
Not ready for anything.

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Lets not talk about love.
Class 95 really have a big influence in my subtle brain.
But I still love listening to Class 95 love song.
I listen to it everyday before sleep.
It feels soothing.
Makes me feel calm.
That is how i perceive love is now.
ookok
stop it!


...

Lets talk about life.
Now this is the equation of my life now.


YES!
see it?

Half of my life is dedicated to work.
My internship.
The other half is dance.
and a minor portion to fashion.
and ARTS!

hahhaha

Intership is fine.
Everyone is good.
People in the office are all good people!
I mean it.
Except for one.
Mr _ _ _ _ _

Irritating man!
He is a good person,
but he gives me this naturally
'i am irritating vibe'
And i think some other people in the office also dont like him.
So its not only me ok!
hahahh!

Other than that,
things are fine.

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stop for awhile coz im hungry.
guess what!
I am such a lazy pig!
I took the instant noodle (NOT the cup one)
soak them in hot water (no where near boiling)
let it 'cook' for awhile.
knowing its not hot enough.
i put them in the microwave for awhile
hahaha
den the water damn hot.
(still not boiling)
hahahaha
pour the water out,
put in the seasoning.
VUALLA!
my maggi mee goreng!
hahahah!
This is how lazy i can be.
I need a wife who can work like a maid.
OPPS!
nono.
i mean a very hard working wife...
hahhaahahaahahhahah!

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Only after one week,
I know what i am.
AO!
Airport Operations.
hahha
but currently,
everyone are using me here and there.
But its fine with me.
This way i will learn alot!
like really really alot!
here and there and EVERYWHERE!

And currently,
i am focusing on Estate Management.
Sound cool right?

The first time i enter the office,
my supervisor was introducing me to the estate management people
and i was like eww..
sound so boring...

GOD must be angry with me.
So he gave me that job.
HHAHAHAHA!

But so far its kinda ok..
very very very interesting!
LITERALLY!
*no sarcasm coz i mean it*

and i really learn a lot from it.

Do you know those chair you seat in the airport,
there are test to see its durability?
What they do is that there is a machine that will rub the fabric.
How they rub the fabric, i dont know.
but i know that some have 5000 rubs, over 30000 rub.
YAH!
So those 30000 rub will be more expensive.
So the reason why some of the stuff are expensive is because of these test.
It is more durable, that is why it is more expensive.
this is what i call is QUALITY!

hahhahha

and there are many other things that i learn.
but i am not going to spill them all here

some are CONFIDENTIAL!
yeah.
The one any only contract i sign with them
DISCLOSURE of CONFIDENTIALITY
something like that.
hahahaha

No other contract or rules, nothing.
hahahhaah
Means i am free to do anything i want to!
hahaha


....

and yes!
MUSE!

This time I dont really have time to publicise it.
busy with work what...
Yeah!

This time is different.
You wont be able to see the 'one and only boy' dancing among the girls anymore.
hahhha
not anymore
but just for this time.

Coz this boy will be with other boys.
and girls ofcourse.
hahhaa
yeah...



i will be with Malay Dance!
YES!

one note,
PLEASE BE PUNCTUAL!
Coz mine will be the first item.
YEAH!
if you are late,
forget about watching,
coz i wont be there.
hahhahahahah!

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