Hati ini bukan milik ku lagi.

I just want to say,
I love you.

Me

I am not so straight...

just saying...

Like a pig

Thanx to dance on Monday, my calves is hurting like bloody mother f. Like seriously!!!

On Tuesday I went back to camp for PT. And damn ran 2.4km. Nope. I only jogged. My calves already started to ache. Not bad but pretty bad for me to start limping after that.

On Wednesday morning, I was handicapped. Almost. I mean I couldn't walk properly. Was literally limping to camp. And I opted out from PT. I just sat down and watch people run. And also did a few sit ups for like 10mins or so...

My friend said a skinny man with abs is like useless. Just like a fat girl with big boobs.
I got not much comment on that... haha
For me, I know that I am already very skinny. Having abs is the only thing I can be happy about because anyother part of my body are just simple urgh...

Back to my story. Today I was like a pig. In camp, I had my duty. Duty ended, went to sleep. Woke up eat my lunch, watched a little bit of tv and went back to sleep. Woke up, eat dinner, watch a movie and went to sleep. Woke up for duty, now I'm going back to sleep.

Don't I sound like a pig??? Hahaha
All I do is just eat tv sleep.

Living the life ns life...
I'm loving it!

Gg

I just gave someone a bad new yesterday.
He was utterly dissapointed.
I just have to do it coz I can't take it anymore.

Today someone else called me.
And gave me a bad news.

Now I'm in camp. I can't do much.
Going online doing a little research. Looking out for what it is. It don't seem very serious.
One possible reason as to my complication I have been having for a long time.

I am not 100% worried because it is nothing serious. Nontheless, it will just stick to me through out the whole time I'm in camp now.

Can't wait to book out. Can't wait for Friday.
Ill be taking my IPPT next week Friday and also go through treatment for my complication.

I wish for a Gold for my IPPT. And a fast recovery.

2013 tittle of Freedom

3 people.
I just wish there are more than 3 people.
I just to let everyone know about me and be carefree.
I don't have to worry about hiding anymore.
I don't wana hide anymore.

Testing my Blogger on Android

Hey!
Its been ages.
My laptop died. So no more nice post or photos...
Nontheless, I got my android phone. Yeay!
And got downloaded Blogger on Android.

Don't think anyone will be reading this.
But I just want to be loyal to my blog.

So here is my first post via blogger android app!

princesyafiqj

baby born

born this way.

i am glad i am born this way.

reason being,

i am pretty happy with the way i am.

my life.

put aside my hatred for my body.

i go through life that is pretty easy.

pretty simple.

pretty manageable.

i mean,

i see some people,

they have so much problem and trouble in their life.

like i dono..

i have a friend who pretty much growing up with people hating him.

ever since secondary school,

people dont really like him.

its not hate, hate.

but there is always a point where they would hate him.

and same thing in poly.

eventually we got into the same school.

so i somehow managed to see him around.

pretty much the same thing happen.

another friend of mine.

always hearing stories meeting weird people.

almost anywhere she go,

she will meet weird people.

like talk to her randomly.

do weird stuff and other..

too many to say here.

another friend of mine.

always get into trouble.

in camp.

whenever there is some kind or what so ever,

among us,

and always,

out of many of us.

its always him getting spotted with the problem or trouble.

some other

forever attached.

and

forever breaking up.

forever sad.

some other face many problem like any where they go.

school

work

ns

i dono.

like anywhere they go,

i always hear problem

like the boss very bad.

argument with colleague.

given too much work.

then i reflect back.

how come i dont face all these things?

why is it pretty much the same people facing the same problem.

i can safely say i an on good terms with everyone.

i dont meet weird people.

if i go work, my bosses are all good.

in ns, i got like one of the "lepak" coy and my unit is pretty much manageable.

i dont always get into trouble.

so yah..

just a reflection.

when people talk about their problem

or i look at their problem,

i always wonder why didnt it happen to me

and thank you god.

you blessed me with this life.

thank you very much god.

well,

i kinda have one problem.

actually more than than. 

some are inside my "treasure box".

highly very very very confidential!

secret!

only few knows.

haha

but one problem that i can say out is...

LOVE.

yes.

*roll eyes*

maybe i am just jealous looking at couple.

my friends pretty much attached and pretty happy.

but i tell myself

ah! f it!

u see their photos online and stuff

looks like they are happy,

are they really happy???

have i seen their tough times???

NO!

so what makes u think they are very very 'secured'.

and also

since im single,

i got the freedom

go fly!

fly like a bird in the sky.

dont think about on love and stuff.

no point dwelling on stuff that may not happen

or probably out of my reach.

like a zillion time ive said.

let fate bring to THE place.

as much as i say these things,

deep inside me i do think about it.

especially at night.

on bed.

and especially when listening to Class 95 Love Song.

ahh...

that programme never fail to melt my heart.

always listen to it when doing duty.

when i do duty after 10,

Class 95 will always be on when doing sentry.

if not, its either 987fm or Gold90!

another heart melting channel.

hahah

so yup.

just a little reflection.

and and and

meet my new baby!

she is my SEX!

she is android.

she is qwerty keypad.

she is touchscreen.

she is what ive been looking for.

just that she is not side kick.

but found her sister.

but not in singapore..

Samsung Galazy S Pro

 

my ultimate phone.

if she comes to singapore,

im gona marry her!!

talking about baby.

i got my baby.

Afi Skyler.

Not really my baby.

myy nepherw.

he is the baby in the house.

literally.

hahha

he is just adorable.

damn 'talkative'!!

very noise.

a lot of baby talk!

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my dearest, how have you been?

in relation to you.

its such a coincident that this song came when i came.

and when we left,

this song showed its true colour.

 

 

the only question is

my dearest, how have you been?

 

 

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 im pretty glad that i went through you.

without you,

i wouldnt have any idea how does it feel to 

be a broken hearted.

how it feels to go through the healing process.

and to see how much stronger ive become.

 

though it was just a moment.

thank you for coming.

thank you for leaving.

 

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Princesyafiqj

 

 

 

realise

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by

But I can't spell it out for you,
No its never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other but.

It's not the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

If you just realize what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realize what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realize what I just realized

If you just realize what I just realized

Oh

Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now

Realize
Realize
Realize 

do you realise it?

i dont know if we are perfect for each other.

but i realise it.

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Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

it never feel the same.

being with others.

its just uncomfortable.

its just foreign.

because u are the best.

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princesyafiqJ

RHIBs

i may not be able to drive a car

but i may be able to drive a 

rigid-hulled inflatable boat

vrrooommmm!

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PrincesyafiqJ

here i go again

I may not happen.

But for some reason i still believe in us.

I dont know why.

possibly the reason why we reconcile.

i still see hope in us.

frankly speaking.

you are no where near my' ideal partner'.

pretty much nothing to what i want.

i dont see what i want in you.

but for some reason why,

i still believe in us.

i just cant explain it.

i just cant describe it.

i just cant tell what is it.

because i seriously dont know what it is.

i questioned myself,

what is it that you have that make me want you so much?

i cant answer that question.

but i know there is something.

there is a ray of light.

 which i adore to it for no reason.

i dont know if its possible for us to happen.

now we are just 'nothing'

i dont know if i should try to start the ball rolling.

or just leave it as it is.

we were so happy when we were together.

but when we were apart.

it seems like the world turn around 180 degree.

like we are enemies.

nothing between us were like butterflies and rainbows and everything nice.

its more like world war two.

so i see possibility in us

but its like i have to dig them out.

we have to dig them out.

we have to go through rough times

go through various obstacle

go through the thunderstorm

go through the stormy seas

go through ...

i have a strong feeling that it is not possible for us to happen.

but we never know if we never try.

now i am just going to leave us as it is.

you.

and

me.

we shall go our separate ways again.

just like history.

and see what the future have for us.

 

.

i shall take this time to explore.

my life.

the world.

my world.

see what i can do for my future.

see what i can do for the future.

i have dreams.

i use to have dreams.

 

but my dreams are just mere shadows.

let me find the light.

i may not shine the light 

i may not be able to shine the light

but at least i know ive got something to make my dreams come true.

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commitment

talk about love.

i love dancing.

seriously!

ii have no problem committing myself to dance.

but i dont know if i can commit myself to 

love.

seriously!

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princesyafiqJ

where

i dont know what we are.

i dont know where we are.

one thing i know.

we are

lost.

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Prince SYAFIQ j

MDNA girl gone wild

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PrincesyafiqJ

Boyfriend

Whats happening to this world???

I know a friend who have the complete package but no Girlfriend.

WHAT THE!!!

This post may sound a little gay but bare with me.

This friend of mine is

1. Good looking.

On the scale of 10, id rate him 6.5

A chinese guy with big eyes and i believe he owns a pair of dimple.

2. Good body.

A nice height.

Body is looks fit.

3. He watches his diet!

4. He have charisma.

The way he stands.

The way he talks.

What ever about him,

just gives out that

aura!

hahha

5. Friendly

6. He got brain!

7. He is not an Ah Beng. 

NO WHERE NEAR THAT!

I think he somehow owns almost everything, what i assume every girl want in a guy.

Unfortunately

he is single!

BLOODY HELL!

And on the other side,

many of my friends who 

dont have the look

dont have the charisma or something

pretty nerdy

i dont know if they got brains or not

 some are like ah bengs

They have girlfriend!

HELLO!!!

GIRLS!!!

are you girls opening your eyes???

I am looking at a diamond here!

But he is NOT taken!

I look at the rubbish, they are all filled with the good stuff.
But this diamond here is..

URGH!!!

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Prince Syafiq J

acne

bad acne.

serious bad acne.

sad.

going to see the doctor soon.

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Prince Syafiq J

MURSE

i just got myself a Murse!

aka MAN PURSE!

I think ill be loving it.

just something i need when i go out.

I have problem going out just with my wallet, mp3 and handphone.

Reason being,

my wallet contain a lot of rubbish.

aka receipts!!!

i cant be bothered to clear them.

so its kinda fat!

i got my mp3.

i dont like to have it in my pocket coz its pretty big after the earpiece are rolled up around the mp3.

and i will need to bring tissue.

WET and DRY!

hahah

they will come in handy!

these are the most important ones.

additional stuff like

water bottle.

gosh! singapore is so hot.

and i get thirsty easily.

umbrella.

the weather is unpredictable.

cardigans.

im pretty skinny with thin skin.

sometimes in the bus or train it can be very cold.

or watching movie.

it will help to keep me warm and fuzzy!

yeah!

the murse is pretty big though.

if u see it its the size of my chest.

im not saying my chest is big.

but big for a hand held purse.

its a PURSE for god sake.

suppose to be small and compact.

but oh well.

they can hold shits!

and i love it!

what more its in leather!!!

*KINKY!!!*

hahaha

nah...

black leather.

a sign of masculinity.

simple.

can match with almost anything i want to wear.

so yah.

why should i not love it?

what more its only $18!

yes!

to me its kinda a wee bit expensive.

but i think its wort it.

got it at chong pang.

hahah

dont tell people that i got it there.

its suppose to look pretty expensive.

hmm..

i dont think its expensive.

but i can say it looks pretty VINTAGE.

yeah!

thats the word.

 coz no young man would carry it.

u will only see old man carrying it.

Thats where i get my inspiration from.

Coz i say this pretty old man carrying something like that.

and i was like eh?!

dats cool.

i also say a young man carrying a murse and i was like eh?

dats cooler.

so.

maybe ill start this Murse thing.

 hahhaha

TRENDSETTER!!!

i make people FOLLOW ME!

not i follow people.

hahhaha

*okok, i just followed some old man with a murse*

but still.

its not in trend right now.

so yup. 

....

 whats in trend now is the Navajo prints.

or should i say the tribal prints.

 those kind of prints.

i was so inlove with them

want to buy those kind of printed shirt.

BUT!

i changed my mind.

its too common now!

TOO TYPICAL!

all the aha bengs are wearing it!

URGH!

i have it when the bengs and the mats dominate a certain kind of fashion that i love.

irritating!

URGH!!!

now i have to find an alternative.

one option is animal prints.

its kinda wide spread.

but not as bad as the navajo prints.

another option is this!



D&G S/S 2012 collection.

something i think the bengs and mats wont go for!

HA!

one thing i need is.
TO BE DIFFERENT!
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Prince SYaFIQ j

POC

And yes.

I have finally Passed Out from my course.

I am no more a trainee.

No more botak hair!!!

Now I am posted to Tuas.

TUAS NAVAL BASE

Yup.
That is where my life will be.

Pretty much another chapter of my NS life.
Or i shall say the last chapter?

Chapter One
BMT- Tekong

Chapter Two
Trainee/ Private- 2PDF

Chapter Three
Trainee/ Private- Changi Naval Base

Chapter Four/ Final
Private/ Lance Corporal/ Copral- Tuas Naval Base


I must say that I am pretty dissapointed that I didnt get platoon best.
I expected that.
But I somehow was aiming for that.

Frankly speaking,
When in 2PDF i didnt know of anything of platoon best or course best.
 Only somewhere at the end of the course.

Then when going to CNB (Changi Naval Base),
I pretty much want to grab that platoon best title.
I know i have a competition.
However, half way through, i had like 50 50 thinking of becoming platoon best.
One reason is that becoming the platoon best, ill go to platoon one after passing ut.
and platoon one is like the worst place to be in.

so thats why.
and further more,
i wasnt outspoken enough.

i have to admit that i am pretty introvert.
i didnt speak out much.
i want to but i dont know why.
sometimes i just can be bothered.
sometimes i sigh...

hahha

oh well.
its over.

i just want it coz it would look nice on my resume or portfolio.
but its ok.

I can still aim for CFC!
Corporal First Class.
hahaha

On another note of becoming CFC,
my reservice will be extended, additional 5 years.
SIGH!!!!

oh well.
we will see how things are.

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on the bright side.
i can grow my  hair now!
WOOHHOO!!!

I cant wait to get back my old hair.
yes i know i am not allowed to keep long hair.
but it will be nice to at least have hair to style
and NOT looking like some NSF!

hahaha

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prince syafiq j

hot NOT

Guess what i'm trying to be?

HOT.

*FAIL!!*

I am trying to be hot.

When im not.

*roll eyes*

Its like orange trying to be an apple.

Butterfly trying to be a fish.

Singapore trying to be Antarctica.

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Prince Syafiq J

random

 

Prince Syafiq j