A coat of Paint!

emotional change

2011-10-18T16:19:00.005+08:00

feeling.

For some reason,
I can feel now.

For some reason,
I can get emotional.
I get more emotional right now.

My tears are like free.

Last time,
I have hard time feeling others.
I barely cry nor just teared.

I can watch love stories, or sad movies and be like
oh.. ok..
so sad...
but emotionally fine.
its like not affected.

Now,
i can feel sad at many simple things.
That day i was watching extreme make over home edition.
They were talking about some of the hard times and the person cried.

And in the name of god!
I felt so sad.
and i started tearing!

I was like WOW!
How in the world did that happen?
I have watched the show like a million times
and now i started tearing.
Not only one time,
but many time!

when i listen to love song at night also.
i managed to listen to the lyrics and capture the intention.
i teared.
not because of the break up but i dont know why.
*maybe the break up have affected me and partly contributed*

but still,
I am just amazed.

not only that,
the idea of getting angry is starting to be on me.
i somewhat can get angry easily.
for some reason,
i start to defy my mother.
i talked back.
which i dont do.

i would usually just keep quiet and keep the comment to myself.
just not defy her.
ill just keep my mouth shut.
and not say a word or even a sound.

i feel like a teenager right now.
feel like i am going through what teenagers does.
try to go against the current.

trying to prove that I am right.
trying to be dominant.
trying to claim my rights.
trying to think that I am always right.
trying to think that all my decision is right even though it is wrong.

i dont like this idea.
i dont like all those idea.
i dont like what i am right now.

this is not a good change.

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anyway,
i found my new love.

Kelly Low Jiayi.
I Love you so much!
I love how much we love so many things so similar.
I love how we know how we feel.
I love how we know how we think.
I love the fact you are a part of my life.
I love you Kelly.

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too much negative post here.
will paint up some bright colours on the next post.

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moving on

2011-10-17T01:38:00.003+08:00

I am just lazy to blog.

Nonetheless.

I have been in a pretty crazy ride.

Life have been good.
But on the other side.
Pretty much going down south.

Those who have been following me on twitter must have seen it.
I think its very obvious.
Ill just confess it here.

I was pretty much attached.
And it didnt work out well.
I mean, on my part, I have tried.
But seems like the other party choose to let it go.

I was ready to make sacrifices for the other party.
But it wasnt really accepted in some ways.
I was really what the other party was looking for.

I mean what else can I do?

All I can say is that the other party is very much a good person.
Very understanding.
Kind.
All the good stuff.
Naturally a good person.

The way the other party looks.
The vibe that the other party give.
Its all good.
Its like a sun.

Just shining and give you that comfortable warm feeling.

I just cant bear to let it go because the other party was very much a good person.
I mean it was my first.
So,
its hard to let it go.

Now that there is no more us.
There is only me.
I am all alone.

Hmmm...
The feeling of loneliness.
The feeling of where am I.
The feeling of what am I going to do now.
The feeling of...

Everyday I asked myself,
what are you doing?
are you already moving on?
are you okay?
are you thinking of me coz I am thinking of you.

Emotionally attached to you.
You cannot cheat your feelings.
I would be lying if I dont have feelings for you.
Up till now.

There are so many things that reminded me of you.

I took the train, and some one smelled like you.
I look at someone, a very close resemblance of you.
I look at some product, reminded me of you.
The food that I ate.
All those advices you gave.

In those short period.
I got to know you so much.

All these makes it harder for me to move on.

Now it have been awhile.
Sometimes I feel like I have moved on.
Sometimes I feel like I am still on the day US didnt exist.

Whatever it is,
I am telling myself.
I will move on.
I am going to move on.
Moving on will I.

It may be hard.
I may take days.
I may take weeks.
I may take months.
I may take years.
I WILL MOVE ON.

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Forever and Always

2011-08-25T23:36:00.002+08:00

She's sitting at the table, the hours get later
He was supposed to be here
She's sure he would have called
She waits a little longer, there's no one in the driveway
No one's said they've seen him
Why, is something wrong?
She looks back to the window
Suddenly the phone rings
A voice says something's happened
That she should come right now
Her mind goes to December
She thinks of when he asked her
He bent down on his knees first
And he said

I want you forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together
Forever and always

She pulls up to the entrance
She walks right to the front desk
They lead her down a million halls, a maze that's never ending
They talk about what happened but she can barely hear them
She tries to keep a straight face as she walks into the room
She sits by his bedside, holds his hand too tight
They talk about the kids they're gonna have and the good life
The house on the hillside, where they would stay

Stay there forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together, and always remember
Whether rich or for poor or for better
We'll still love each other, forever and always

Then she gets an idea and calls in the nurses
Brings up the chaplain and he says a couple verses
She borrows some rings from the couple next door
Everybody's laughing as the tears fall on the floor
She looks into his eyes, and she says

I want you forever, forever and always
Through the good and the bad and the ugly
We'll grow old together, and always remember
Whether happy or sad or whatever
We'll still love each other, forever and always
Forever and always, forever and always

She finishes the vows but the beeps are getting too slow
His voice is almost too low
As he says, I love you forever, forever and always
Please just remember even if I'm not there
I'll always love you, forever and always

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Say Hello To Goodbye

2011-08-09T12:57:00.002+08:00

Seems like it didnt work out.

I let my insecurity play the game.

I wanted you to be strong for me.
But i didnt want to disappoint you.

I think its better this way.
Better for us.

Anyway,
thanx for the memories.
Really appreciate every moment we had together.

Now its time to heal.
Time to move on.

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move on?

2011-08-08T01:01:00.003+08:00

I want to tell you something.
Something that might broke your heart.

I have told you this.
But I am very afraid of moving on.

I feel for you.
But I dont really really feel for you.

I dont know how to explain it.

For some reason I dont know why,
I cant see you filling up my empty heart.

Maybe it takes time.

But what happen if time dont work?
and nothing happens?

I will end up hurting you.

Which I dont want to.
Which I dont intend to.

I dont want you to see this as a 'try out' for me.
I am myself trying my best to be serious about it.

Should I just take a step back?

Should I just cut the string between us?

Should I just wait?

What should I do?

I feel like I am having a city in my brain.
Loads of building, complex winding roads.
Extremely populated and polluted.
It is just so complex.
I think I shall call it
CompleXity!

I am very very sorry if I hurt you in the end...

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Prince Syafiq J

Best I ever had

2011-08-07T23:50:00.002+08:00

I opened the door.

Open the door to 2 precious person in my life.

I feel so much free-ier now.
I feel like I can fly better.
Fly easier.

Because the two precious person in my life;
i can now walk along with them
without wearing any thick coat of secrets
which have been weighing me down.

No wonder I am so skinny...
hahha

But yeah.
I am glad that they know things I want them to know.

I am so freaking delighted.

Thank you guys!
I love you till the core of my heart, lungs and soul.

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nasi padang

2011-08-05T12:05:00.003+08:00

Is this the beginning?

I mean,
the journey?

I am very scared.
I am very very scared.

Please save me if I fall.

I know nothing about what this journey will be like.
I know nothing about how this journey will be like.

I feel anxious.
I feel scared.
I feel insecure.
I feel happy.
I feel delighted.

My feelings is like a
Nasi Padang in a packet.
A whole mixture of various dishes.
Some I love.
Some I dont favour.

But overall,
it is nice.

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thank you

2011-08-05T01:42:00.002+08:00

Thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you.

Thank you for the talk.
Thank you for your honesty.
Thank you.

I appreciate that.

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Prince Syafiq J

lets do it together

2011-08-04T23:16:00.003+08:00

It seems like you are already running the marathon.
While I merely started warming up.

I think you are moving too fast.
Dont you think so?

Coz I dont feel for you.
I dont have that urge to be with you.
I dont have that need for you.
I dont think I am there yet for you.
I dont think I am ready for you.

If I am not ready,
We are not ready.

There is no We when there is only you.
We only exist because of me and you.

Lets stop for now.
You take a few steps back.
And lets take a baby step forward; Together.

Because I still dont understand you.
And you still dont understand me.

I still dont know you.
And you still dont know me.

We need to be comfortable with each other.
And I am not fully comfortable with you.
As a friend?
Yes.
More than that?
No.

I want to be able to talk to you like how i talk to my friends.

This diamond is still buried deep down below
and have not shown its true colour.

And you have not seen my colours.
It maybe beautiful
It maybe ugly
It all depends on your eyes.

If you want Us to be love.
A superficial one.
Then,
I am sorry.
Unfortunately, I am not one of them.
I have a complex mindset.
I have deep thoughts.
And love is one that I am exploring now.

So, if you are just scratching the surface,
dont scratch mine.

I am trying to dig a deep hole to find the true meaning of it.

If you want Us to be love,
we have to take sail the voyage together.
And I sail it slow and steady.

I dont want to start sailing when the boat is only partially not done.

Here is the songs.

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Quando Quando Quando

2011-08-04T01:31:00.002+08:00

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Prince Syafiq J

what if...

2011-08-04T00:03:00.002+08:00

What if...?

If there is You and I.
I wonder how will it be.

What if?

I dont know how will I be.
I dont know how you will be.
I dont know how we will be.

What if?

You, me and love.

What if?

There are so many questions I want to ask.

What if?

Will I love you dearly.
Will I be willing to sacrifice my life for you.
I dont know.
Coz now,
I dont feel anything.
I dont feel you.
I dont feel us.

What if?

I feel me.
I feel lost.
I feel unsure.
I feel unassured.
I feel...

What if?

I dont know how you feel about me.
I dont know how you will feel about me.

What if?

Are you going after me because of who i am
or
are you going after me because of what i have?

What if?

I dont know.
I dont know.
I dont know.

What if?

I dont feel right.
I dont feel wrong.

What if?

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Prince Syafiq J

assurance?

2011-08-03T23:16:00.003+08:00

You see a storm heading our way
You know the cold can make things delay,
Up here it can't do any harm.
The cracks show in the concrete jungle
Tear apart the weakest of hearts,
Up here you'll be safe in my arms.
Oh.

I know that you're feeling like we're only dreaming
Well don't look down 'cause this is real.

Like a satellite we're flying
Overhead where we see it all.
Nothing can touch us, we're everything and more.
There's no turning back from this point.
Reaching heights like never before.
Nothing can touch us, we're everything, we're everything and more.

Let's try holding each other,
Found a love to last forever.
Up here gives you wings to stay strong, ooh.
The air is pure that we're breathing.
We're something to believe in,
'Cause I feel it's where we both belong.

I know that you're feeling like we're only dreaming
Well don't look down 'cause this is real.

Like a satellite we're flying
Overhead where we see it all.
Nothing can touch us, we're everything and more.
There's no turning back from this point.
http://www.elyricsworld.com/everything_and_more_lyrics_david_archuleta.html
Reaching heights like never before.
Nothing can touch us, we're everything, we're everything and more.

Trust me this is worth not falling back to Earth.
Everything and more is up here.

Like a satellite we're flying
Overhead where we see it all.
Nothing can touch us, we're everything and more.
There's no turning back from this point.
Reaching heights like never before.
Nothing can touch us, we're everything and more.

Nothing can touch us, we're everything, we're everything and more.
We're everything and more, hey

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The Lonely Guy

2011-08-02T22:25:00.004+08:00

Hmmm...

Was kinda bored.
So watched tv.
Watched HBO and came across this movie.

What captured my attention was...

I bet you know...

The title of the movie.

'The Lonely Guy'

So i decided to watch it,
since the title is pretty relate-able to what I am in now...

Didnt really catch it from the start.
A simple movie.
But it was a funny movie.

You know Steve Martin!
Such a funny person.

And the soundtrack.
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Prince Syafiq J

SHOPPING List

2011-08-02T13:13:00.028+08:00

*disclaimer: majority of the photos below are extracted from various websites.
so, if you want me to remove them, do leave me a message*

Here comes the holy month.
The fasting month.

Despite the hunger I am facing,
It is also a good time to shop.
SHOPPING!!!

yes.

A good reason to shop.
Coz Hari Raya is coming.

Kinda Need new clothes for hari raya!

haahhahh!

So i am going to list out what I wana buy.
Shopping list.

I already got my (1) electric/royal blue pants.
bought it at my work place, John Little.
They surprisingly have that cool coloured pants!

its sold at $29!
I think its pretty cheap.
I mean I saw them selling at Topman and Massimo Dutti.
For sure it WILL cost a bomb!
and further more,
I got my permanent staff to use her staff card.
so, i got 25% OFF!
hahaah!

So its like $21 dollars!
FREAKING CHEAPER!!!!!
MUAHAHHAH!!!

and I am loving that blue pants!!!!
Because it is super bold blue!

I think that the BLUE is the BEST colour ever!
No wonder the sky is blue.
You will never EVER get sick of it!

the aunty at my workplace say its not nice coz it is hard to match.
I got no comment coz they are aunties...
hahhaa

I think the pants is FUN!
Its a bold bold colour!

You can go both ways.
You can either make it pop outmore!
or take a chill pill with it.

I plan to pair it with another popping colour.
Like yellow, orange or red shirt.
Yeah!
its called COLOUR BLOCKING!

But you will need a few MORE BALLS to carry this look!
coz you WILL FOR SURE
STAND OUT in the crowd!

or

wear a white or black or grey or warm neutral colours
with it to ease the boldness.

I already have a hot red berm.
i rarely wear it but when I wear them,
I think i have handle them well.

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Got my (2) floral shirt.

The bottom half of the shirt kinda faded to a dark green colour.
Didnt take a full length photo with it.
and yes!
another item that requires you to be have ba gua skin!

i got mine at KL.
Its around Rm50 or less there
Coat about SGD20 ish...

cheap right?!

In Singapore,
it would have cost SGD50 itself!
Like What The Falala!!
(im fasting, so cannot say the F word)

I think if a guy were to wear a floral shirt,
he needs to consider a lot.
like the flower printed.
the colour of the shirt.

I mean the fact that you are wearing something
that is PRETTY!
that is meant to be for WOMEN!
You need to make it look MANlier on you!

To be safe,
try avoiding PINK flowers!
or pink shirt with flowers.
Its just too feminine.

I like how the red blazer kinda tone down the floral print.

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I want to buy some (3) coloured cardigan.
i think cardigan is a good thing.
I know the weather in singapore is hot,
but it is a nice outer wear to have to spice up you look a little.
Just pull the sleeve up and i am fine with a simple tshirt in singapore!

I already have black and grey cardigan.
I just need a few more with cool colours.

I was working in John Little and they have MANY nice cardigan.
its only $25!

And cardigan is light,
so i can just throw them in my bag when i dont need them,
and my bag will still be as light.

so a coloured cardigan is a MUST!

next is anything leopard prints!
OH MY GOD!

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I have been dying to own (4) anything Leopard prints!!!
ANYTHING!
This is a MUST MUST in my wardrobe!

Be it shoe, shirt, tshirt, jacket, cardigan, pants, shorts!
I NEED to have at least ONE!

I love how balanced the shoe is.
It is not ROAR!

Unlike this shoe.
But I wouldnt mind owning it!

I think this shirt is nice.
Manly enough.

One of my favourite shoe.
Coz it have the best of both world!
Animal prints and Studs!

Even Steven Tyler wears them!!!

why cant i???

if not leopard prints,
I am fine with other animal prints.
Zebra, tiger, giraffe, cow...
anything!

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Basics!
I need (5) Basic tshirt!
Like plain old coloured Tshirts!

I have a lot of tshirt but they are all printed with graphics and stuff.
I need like many simple plain colouful tshirts.
I know that my good friend, Mr Hasidie owns LOADS of them!
from TOPMAN especially!

I dont even have a simple black or white tshirt.
Nope!

I need them coz I want to pair them up with what i stated above.
all things crazy clothes!
hahaha
And also kinda to simplify my clothes.
Coz you CANNOT!
CANNOT! and NEVER EVER!
Wear crazily printed shirt with leopard prints clothes!

oh yah!
and maybe (6) long sleeve tshirt also!

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I have been wanting to buy this for long!
a (7) black sheer shirt.
it is so hard to get this!

I know Topman has it but you know I dont play Topman!
It is freaking EXPENSIVE!!!
I only go for CHEAP GOODS!
So, I am trying to get it from the ladies shop or blogshop
coz i know i can get it at a way cheaper price!

I want to wear sleeveless shirt or singlet with the sheer shirt.
and not like this

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I know that i will own one of these when November comes.
(8) Boots!

Yes!

i want to stuff my skinny jeans in them!
wear them with men shorts! or berms!
and show off my MEN hairy skinny chicken legs!
meggings and shorts!
WOOHOO!

Talking about boots.
Especially Doctor Martens,
they came up with Brogue Shoes!
I think they are awesome!

this is brogue shoe

but Doctor Martens and some other designer made them look
pretty eye popping and
in love with them more!

I went for a temporary admin job.
and show this guy wearing something like this
but all black.
Looks like normal dress shoe but with a twist!
I tell you!
I am soo in love with it now!

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and now a days i see many men in slim blue jeans,
plain white shirt tucked in
with a brown belt and shoe.
that i a perfect match!

I want to get those (9) pairing brown belt and shoe.
This is not any brown.
not those chocolate brown.
But more of an orangey tone brown.

I couldnt find any good example of it
but these guys here are close...

pair them with chinos also...

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and another shoe that i have see it commonly!
It is very very common.
I know I dont like to be common
but i cant help but to need to own one.
(10) boat shoe.

yes!
the ultimate casual shoe!

my brother just bought one.
and its like all red in colour!

I am so loving it!

How i wish i can fit in it!
den i can borrow it from him.

But I want something like this

My uncle owns them.
And I love it!
He wear it at almost any occasion and still look good.

if its not this colour,
I would love a colourful one!

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And lastly!
(11) Accessories!
Loads and loads of them!
"bangles", rings, necklaces, bags, man-clutch

actually there are many others,
but i shall just stop here!

ALL HAIL SHOPPING!!!!

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Uncle Syafiq

2011-08-02T01:56:00.003+08:00

I'm going to be an uncle soon!
hahah!
YEAY!

Uncle Syafiq!

My sis say Pak Ngah!
I was Pak Ngah?

NNOOO WWAAYYY!!

UNCLE OKAY!

All these pak ngah pak ngah i dont play okay!
No WAY!

Its UNCLE!

hahah!

7 weeks pass.
so that is like almost 2 months.
so there will be like 7 more months.

WOW!
Counting.
Seems like its going to be a MARCH BABY!!!

Same as ME!!!
I got someone to celebrate my bday with!

heheheh!

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whats our status?

2011-08-01T23:51:00.003+08:00

I dont know where we are.
I dont know what we are.

and I already find it hard.

I dont know what to do.

what should i do?

what should we do?

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There is enough for everyone. But why am I still waiting in line...

2011-07-29T16:04:00.002+08:00

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Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

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fear of love

2011-07-29T14:26:00.006+08:00

Dear Love,

I am so afraid of you.
I am so scared of you.
I am so scared of what you can do to me.

I know I have been talking about this love thing a lot.
I just cant help it.
I always keep on thinking about it.

Everywhere I go, there will always be love song playing in some store.

Like what I have always said,
I want to love and be loved.

But one day,
I was just so scared of it.

I dont think I am trying to be optimistic here.
But I was suddenly scared of love.
I am scared of it hurting me.

I see other people fall out of love.
They were hurt.

I see them going through rough times in their relationship.
They were hurt.

That is what I am afraid about.

Lets say if
I were in a relationship.
And we love each other so much.
And for some reason,
we break up.

I think that is the last thing every person wants to happen.

Yah yah yah.
I know that I have not been a relationship
and already thinking about all these stuff.
But what if it really happen?

I seriously have never been in true blue relationship.
I am just afraid of all the things that every couple goes through.
All those disagreement, arguments, fights and etc...

If it happens,
I dont know if I have the power to go through all those.
I dont even know if I have the determination to keep relationship alive.
All I see now is that it is some kind of burden to be in a relationship.

It is like a kerosene lamp.
I will always have to pour in the kerosene to keep the fire alive.

Isn't that a hassle?

Why cant it be like an eagle soaring in the sky
Nicely following the current of the wind.

I am the kind of person who can be very ignorant.

If you ask my friends,
If I were in some kind of argument and dont want to pursue it further,
I can just keep quiet and pretend nothing happen.

I can give you the silent treatment for as long as I can.
I have done it to my sister for over half a decade,
why cant I do it to someone who I just got to know?

I guess my partner have to have a strong determination.
Because of me being ignorant,
the relationship will be a one sided relationship.
I know if that happen,
it is not worth keeping the relationship.

Okay...
I dont know what I am talking about now.
Kinda lost track of my intention.

Whatever is it,
I am just so afraid of love.

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work it!

2011-07-20T00:09:00.005+08:00

Marina Square.
John Little.

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Dangerously In Love

2011-07-17T01:27:00.004+08:00

I love you

Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete
If you weren't by my side
You're my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the sea
With you and God, who's my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I'm so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you
I'll never leave
Just keep lovin' me
The way I love you loving me

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I'm grateful
To have you by my side

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you

Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love

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Is there anyway that it could happen?

those moment where

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you

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This is how I want it to be

2011-07-10T01:13:00.003+08:00

Here I am.
Some where foreign.
Not my house.
Not my place.
Not my country.

Here I am in a house.
Not mine.
Rented probably.

Here I am.
Here is my life.

Student in some university abroad.
Staying in someone else house.
House that have other student also.

I came back feeling all tired.
Shagged.
Lethargic.
Sick.

Yes thats it.

Sick.

I want to be sick.
Actually no I dont.
Coz I am on my own and being sick is the last thing on my mind.
Well, there is a reason why I want to be sick.
Maybe not a want, but more of wanting to see what happens next.

So,
I throw my bag on the living room floor and sit on the sofa.
Hands on my head.
*you know that headache action*
Resting.

Here is the best part.
YOU.
Yes you.

You came in and saw me.
You got worried.
You came to me and asked me if im okay.

I look at you.
Squint my eyes trying to see who you are.
My vision wasn't that clear.
I gave you that I-am-not-feeling-well-look.

You touched my head.
Touch my throat.
You claim that I am not feeling well.
You claim that I look pale.
You concluded that I got fever.

Yes.
Fever.

Thanks to this cold cold weather this country own.
And my 2nd hand Salvation Army $10 trench coat is so not helping me keep my body warm.
Nope.
It is not.

You went to the kitchen.
You took out a pill or aspirin.
You pour warm water into a clear glass.
You came to me and instructed me to take them and rest.

I pop those pills in.

You pull me up and escorted me to my room.
You lay me down on my bed.
You pull the blanket over me.
You said that I should rest.
You left the room.

I went to sleep.

I sleep.
I sleep.
I sleep.

I woke up.
I was hungry.
I went to the kitchen to get my empty tummy filled up.
I was still sick.
I had to walk with my hand on the wall for support.
I think the medicine was still active.
I can see stars.
I saw you in the kitchen.

You shouted my name.

I blanked out.
I cant remember what happen.

I woke up.

You.
You were sitting beside me.
You were by my bed.
You were looking at me.

I looked at you.

You smiled.

I try to get myself up.
I couldnt.

You helped me up.

I am resting on the bed head board.

You knew I was hungry.
You brought up a bowl of porridge.
A bowl of hot porridge that you just cooked.

I wanted to take the bowl away from you.
But you insisted that I should rest.

You wanted to feed me.

I couldnt help it.

You scoop some of the hot porridge with the soup spoon.
You blew it cold.
You blew it again.
You brought the spoon close to my mouth.

I blew it again.

You feed me.
You feed me till the last drop of liquid in the bowl.

I thanked you.

You put me back to bed.
You asked me to rest.
You left the room.

I went back to sleep.

The next morning.

I woke up.

Before I can get myself up,
you came into my room.

You came in with a tray.

I can see a bowl and a glass of water.

You put the tray by my side table.

My head was still spinning.
I tried to get myself up.

I still couldn't.

You help me up again.

You made porridge again.
You feed me again.
After feeding me,
you gave me a pill to eat.
You bought me medicine.

I thanked you again.

You left the room.

I went back to sleep.

This happen over 2 days.

One time,
while you were feeding me,
I stared at you.

I watch you blowing that hot porridge for me.
I watched you.
I watched you every movement.

Because there wasnt anything interesting to watch.
There was only you.

Yes you.

I spilled out some of the porridge of my mouth.

You took the tissue and wipe my mouth.
I look at you.
I stared at you.

You saw me checking you out.
You looked at me.

I looked at you deep in the eyes.

You looked at me deep in the eyes.

You looked away.
You said that you got something else to do.
You feed me the pills.
You left the room.

I lay on the bed.
I think.
I think about nothing except you.
Yes you.

So,
do you know what does this means?

Is this what is means?

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ice cream and love

2011-07-08T01:25:00.003+08:00

imagine you are craving for ice cream.
and you bought a tub of your favourite ice cream.
Mine would be mint chocolate chip.

you open the top.
take your spoon
stab it in
pull back with much energy
trying to get as much ice cream as you can
and at the same time
trying to curl the ice cream
attempting to make is as round as possible
just like what you on the cover of the tub.

put it in a small bowl.

off to the living room
on your most seasoned sofa
sitting in your favourite position
and indulge in your favourite ice cream
as you watch you favourite tv show.

yup.
imagine that the ice cream is 'love'.
look back at the words that i have bold.

that action.
I am missing that now.

and also the rest of it...

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Dear Cupid,
It is ironic that I love, love song so much.
Yet I hate it cause its hurting me.
Every time I listen to it,
I feel like the lyric just turn into sharp knife stabbing my heart.

Do you know how much pain I am going through?
My heart is just a heart
without and kind of armour to protect itself.

Probably a love from _______ could help me ease the pain.

Help me cupid.

Yours sincerely.

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portrait of .....

2011-07-07T21:32:00.021+08:00

I can have wings.

*to further enjoy this post to the max, please play the song and go through this post*
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I wish I can fly.
Dear god.

Fly.

Have you ever wish you can fly.

Fly way up high in the sky.

Have you ever wish you have wings.

Wings that you can flap.

You flap.
You flap and fly.
You flap and fly way up high.
Way up high in the sky.

Sky is the limit.

Possibility.
Nope.
Does not exist.

I can have wings.

But I wont fly.

I can have wings.

But I wont fly.

I can have wings.

But I wouldn't fly.

I can have wings.

But I cant fly.

I can have wings.

But I couldn't fly.
Couldn't

I can have wings.
I can have wings.
I can have wings.
I can have wings.

GIVE ME THAT MOTHER FUCKING WINGS!

i here by sentence you to

sometimes its isn't about change.

its about you.

change is grow. grow is change.

change

grow

isn't it good to grow?

but
when you are up there,

remember respect.

and

LOVE

I know you are bigger

better

stronger

rebel

and you rebel
rebellious

to reject, resisit, or rise in arms againts one's government or ruler.

to resist or rise against some authority, control, or tradition

to show or feel utter repugnance

and you arm yourself.

protect

keep yourself in a tiny little bottle.

a tiny little bottle
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I shall take a step back

take a step back

and not talk

keep it to myself.

nobody knows whats inside

nobody.

and it just get worst

there is nothing i can do for you.

do you still want to fly?

fly
fly way up high
fly way up high in the sky

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for the next post

2011-07-07T21:23:00.003+08:00

its here again.
skipped last year.

remember

THIS

and

THIS

its back again this year.

up in the next post!

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loving life

2011-06-30T01:45:00.006+08:00

I love my life.
Just bumming at home.
All day long...

I just wish my house is by the beach.

and have a hammock in my balcony facing the beach

just chill there till the sun sets...

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A Million Roses

2011-06-29T01:17:00.002+08:00

There once lived a painter,
He had a house and his paintings.
He was in love with an actress,
And that actress loved flowers.
Then he sold his house,
Sold his paintings too
And with that money he bought
A whole sea of flowers.

Million, million,
Million of red roses
From your window, from your window
From your window you can see
Who's in love, who's in love
Who's crazy in love with you
My whole life for you
I will turn into flowers

In the morning you'll wake up at your window
Maybe, you've lost your mind
As if still in a dream
Your whole yard is filled with flowers
Suddenly your heart is turning cold
Who's the rich baron doing this?
Instead under the window, barely breathing
The poor painter is standing

Million, million,
Million of red roses
From your window, from your window
From your window you can see
Who's in love, who's in love
Who's crazy in love with you
My whole life for you
I will turn into flowers

The meeting was short
By night she left on a train
But in her life she always remembered
Song of the beautiful of roses
The painter lived out his life alone
Many pains he lived through
But in his life he always had
A whole sea of beautiful roses

Million, million,
Million of red roses
From your window, from your window
From your window you can see
Who's in love, who's in love
Who's crazy in love with you
My whole life for you
I will turn into flowers

A Million Roses
A cover by Jonghyung from SHINee.

Pretty soft on the starting
Maybe he is a little rough on certain part.
But no doubt, a good vocal.
When I first heard this song,
I straight away fell in love with it.
No doubt.

By the way it is actually a Russian song.

Alla Pugacheva 1983

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Daddy's Day

2011-06-20T07:05:00.005+08:00

Daddy's Day
went to wedding.
So many weddings.

At the end of the day went to
Ben & Jerry's at Dempsey Hill.

I freaking love this VW mini van!

ADORABLE!!!
I dont mind driving one as my 'car'.

Love the place.

And i wonder whoes bed is that.
So interesting.
I want a house something like this when i retire.
Cool right.

Isnt shes cute???
She is already cute looking
and look at her expression so more!

The Ice Cream!

Dad & Mum
can you see the bits and pieces of them in me?
hahaha

How about this one?
My brother-in-law, sister and brother.
Younger sister was kinda not in the mood.

So yup.

By the way,
I am leaving to Malaysia right after posting this.
Going Tioman and Kl.
Will be back probably in 4-5 days time.

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Depress NOT!

2011-06-19T03:21:00.008+08:00

Today,
went to Parco.
Shahreen invited me to the
Depression Private Party.
A soft launch of their collection.
Birth Defect

One of my favourite local brand.
I simply LOVE each and every of their item.
No doubt.
Very different from what you see.
It is not normal.

Here are a few of my favourites.

They bring the name of a 'shirt' to a whole new level.
You can visit their FB page for more information.
DEPRESSION

After that meet up with Tasha and Azza

Random meeting.
Went to Tangling.
HAHAHAHAHHA!
OMG! Just have to Laugh It Out Loud.
Coz there was a flea market.
And it was my 1st time going to a REAL flea market.
And the stuff there are extremely CHEAP!
Like 1 dollar 2 dollar.

I managed to get 2 shirt and a denim jacket at a total cost of
FIVE DOLLAR!

What the fuck right??!!!
Like WTF!

The denim jacket was $2.
One shirt cost $2.
The other cost $1.

INSANE!
TOTALLY INSANE!

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new handphone

2011-06-18T02:19:00.004+08:00

look at my new baby!

I know its not so really me.
But it spells simplicity.

Its touch screen.
Wi-fi-able.
Yah...

Pretty much what I wanted.
Just without the qwerty keypad and side kick and android.
There is ovi though.
But it looks classy enough.
hahaha

not 100% loving it YET.
but will be loving it for a few months.

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Because they make me feel comfortable

2011-06-10T03:07:00.015+08:00

They boost my confidence.

just look at them.
i have what they have.

I cant dont need to worry much about how skinny i look.
God gave me this body.
I know this sounds cliche
but
I'm Born This Way!

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how to look good naked

2011-06-06T04:58:00.004+08:00

When I am around my friends who are close to me,
i want to get comfortable with them.
i want them to see who i really am.
if they dont accept me for who i am,
well, there is nothing i can say other than,
"Oh, its ok. you can choose to leave if you want to."

I shall not hide my feeling to them.
I shall not cover up any hidden story or feeling or my physical flaws.
Be comfortable in my own skin
in my own feelings.

I know them well.
They know me well.

There is really nothing to hide about.

This is me.
This is who I am.
This is what I am.

Talking about skin,
hmm...
If I am comfortable with my body,
i would like to take naked photos of myself.
HAHHAH!
ey!
Not fully naked okay.

I am sure some of you have watched the show
'How to look good naked'

*i totally agree to what the men says in the video. I love girls who got curves more than runway models material*

Cant find any video of it.
But I wont be fully naked.
But just enough to show my skin.
hahaahaha

so yeah...

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ramdom

2011-05-23T01:42:00.004+08:00

I got so many things to say.
But just damn lazy.

What ever it is,
I am kinda enjoying life.

NOT!

I just got one of my tooth extracted!
Like bloody toot!
One of my back tooth is extracted.
I am damn sad.
Now i am only chewing using one side.
No more both side.
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I just finished watching
Joe Dirt.

Damn that show.
It may be stupid.
But there are so many meanings behind the show.

'You may think you are the worst man on earth,
but believe me, there are worst out there!'

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I would also like to thank my girls who performed for LEAPS.
It was a success.
Thank you girls!
Without you girls, I dont know how things will be.

Thank you!

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unaccepting the accepted.

2011-05-09T02:59:00.003+08:00

Its the problem again.
the body problem.
I still have yet come to a point where i accept
my "beautiful" body.

seriously.

there is no way i can sit down and tell myself this.
I LOVE MY BODY.

Sometimes i go out,
and see slim or i should say skinny guys in singlet or tank tops,
i always wonder,
where in the world does he get the confidence to
show so much skin?
or i should say BONES!

Some are even in a tiny little speedos!
that is like MAJOR!
i can see that you are very comfortable with your own body.

I am here not craving for perfection.
Who is?

I dont expect to have washboard abs, big chest or what so ever.
Just want to look healthy.
Healthier.
Something that is more accepted by norm.

however,
after listening to this song,
what can i do?

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Republic Polytechnic Dance Festival

2011-05-06T02:04:00.004+08:00

Its the time of the year again.
MOMENTUM!

I will be performing.
But once again,
I am going to say this over and over again.
Do come down and watch!
not to support me but support the arts scene in SG!

Many many good dance groups are performing;
NUS Dance Ensemble
SMU InDanCity
TP Dance Ensemble
Dance Spectrum
some SYF Gold with honour secondary school
and many many many more!!!

its only $10!!!

Momentum
27 - 28 May 2011
Republic Polytechnic
TRCC, Theater.

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Aside from that,
this time will be a little special.

Besides Momentum main event,
that is the dance concert,
I have something that i really really want everyone to watch!

LEAPS!
A student choreography showcase.

I am one of the choreographer.
I am choreographing!

This is my first time choreographing.
I have always wanted to choreograph.
I am doing it now!
Its in the process now.
And i can say that other choreographer are doing a good job!
Seriously,
I really want people to see my creation.
Just like how you see my photos created.
Now it is translated to DANCE form.

All performance are solely created from the students themselves!
There are 7 student choreographer.
All 7 are showing very different things.
We got Hip Hop student choreographer doing modern dance.
Capoeira student choreographer doing malay dance.
Wushu student choreographer doing mixing Hip Hop and Wushu Martial Arts.
Me doing hahhaahh! something pretty hmm...
how to say ah...
awkward?

(the photo kinda show a little preview of my item)

and many many more!!!

and here is the best thing.
its FREE!

YES! FREE!
FREE!
FREE!

Dont you just love FREE things?
I mean like hello!!!
FREE!
ZERO DOLLARS!

So come down to
Republic Polytechnic
TRCC, Dance Studio 1
Thursday evening.
19th May 2011.

I am soo freaking excited for this thing!
AHH!!
I have been working hard for this.

I have a hard time sleeping at night cause of this.
Hahahah!
But I can its going to be all worth it!

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when its out

2011-05-03T23:51:00.002+08:00

Hello.
I am a disappointment.
I know I am.
I know I will be.
I couldn't help it.

I am sorry.

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national service

2011-04-29T02:29:00.005+08:00

8th November 2011

8:45 am
Pulau Tekong
Singapore Armed Force
Basic Military Training

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power random

2011-04-28T00:06:00.011+08:00

Dont say we Dont love you guys.

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Confession

2011-04-26T03:24:00.004+08:00

I have a confession.

I am sorry.

But this is so wrong.

But I,

wanna club!

I just love the feeling of the loud music beating my ear

as my body respond to it.

Prince Syafiq J

That special someone

2011-04-25T03:49:00.007+08:00

I am not gona care much about how my blogs looks like now.
But I think I just want to let this out.

I dont know whats getting into me lately.
I suddenly felt 'Lonely'

I feel so alone.
Its not those literally i am lonely kinda feeling.
But more of like,
i am alone because of me being single?

I mean,
I dont know...
I just feel like i want to love somebody.
I,
I just want to be with somebody who i love truly.

I want to fill my empty heart with that someone special.
I want that special someone.

This is just so not me.
I really dont want to me attached.
I am really not prepared.
This thing have been going one some time.

Sometimes I just feel like having that special someone to talk to,
every night before i go to sleep.
I want to say "Good Night Love, I Love You".
And the good night conversation will just go on,
either one of us not wanting to put the phone down cause we just dont want to.
Only until one of us decide to put the phone down unwillingly.
I want to go to sleep smiling about that special someone and
thinking that that special someone will always be in my heart.
I long to see that special someone in my dream.
I want to wake up in the morning thinking about nothing but that special someone.
I want to check my phone and see if that special someone have text me in the morning.
I want to be the one saying "Good Morning Love. I Love You"
I want to walk down the streets holding that special someone's hand.
I want to hug that special someone tight like there is no tomorrow
and say "I Love You" with my tears rolling down my cheeks.
Knowing how much I love that special someone so much.
How much that special someone means to me.
I want to look deep into that special someones eyes
and we both know what we are saying, "I Love You".
I want that special someone to be a secret.
A sacred?
It will just be us.
Only us and nobody.
Dear Cupid,
Dear God,
where is that special someone?

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in this moment

2011-04-08T03:34:00.003+08:00

Blog in construction.

I went for my trip to India.

I finished my internship.

I Had my prom night.

I am graduating baby!

I have no more internet at home.

So, I will be rarely online.

I will be virtually disconnected.

princesyafiqj

नमस्ते

2011-02-08T10:19:00.003+08:00

Namaste!
or..
err...
Vanakkam!

Heheh!

HELLO INDIA!

One of the place I never expected to go.

Will be there to attend
workshops & dance Festival at Chidambaram Temple.

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i am.

2011-01-31T00:31:00.002+08:00

I am timid
And I am oversensitive
I am a lioness
I am tired and defensive
You take me in your arms
And I fold into you
I have insecurities
You show me I am beautiful

Love me or leave me just take it or leave it
It's not that I'm needy just need you to see me
Take me, free me, see through to the core of me
Take me, free me, there will be no more pretending

I am temperamental
And I have imperfections
And I am emotional
I am unpredictable
I am naked
I am vulnerable
I am a woman

I am opening up to you

Love me or leave me, just take it or leave it
It's not that I'm needy, just need you to see me
Take me, free me, see through to the core of me
Take me, free me, there will be no more pretending

Now I stand before you with my heart in my hands
I'm asking you to take me just the way that I am

Please lay down your arms
Do you know me?
Make me feel safe from harm

Oh just take me, free me, see through to the core of me
Take me, free me, there will be no more pretending

I am temperamental
And I have imperfections
And I am emotional
There'll be no more pretending

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enstyle

2011-01-22T23:26:00.003+08:00

(click on the photo for larger view)

WOW!
Should I be honoured???
I mean this came in very random!
LIKE totally very very random!

A glance through,
it look like some other spam or virus.

But after reading it
I seems rather believable.
I went to facebook,
and yes. its there.
Many other people are there also.
But not yet launch.

The most WOW thing that caught my attention is the 2 words circled.
Firstly, they did research!
and i believe they must have spent some time on my blog.

next is to LEAD!
Like LEAD???
omg!
WOW!
Interesting!!!

hahahha!
I JUST replied the persons email.
hahah!
You can see i hardly check my email
via the numerous amount of email not read.

Now it is still a mystery.
and I am waiting for things to happen.

Jia you!

enstyle is a social network that focuses on fashion, and works only inside Facebook

We made it for people that style is an important part of their life, want to express their unique taste, and get inspired by others

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this little killing

2011-01-22T21:48:00.003+08:00

Ever heard of Television killed the Radio?

I think Facebook is somehow killing Blog.

VS

look at the frequency of my post.
Pathetic!

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change is me.

2011-01-17T01:04:00.003+08:00

The world have change
Time = Change
Change is Me.

I have change.

I know I have change.
But for better or worst,
I have no idea.

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I dont know what to say.
I mean,
i feel like i am getting into this thing called love.
I believe the past few post have been pretty much about love.
so is my twitter.
I am just so curious about it.

In the past,
love is like nothing to me.
Its like redundant.
I dont find the need to love someone else.
*aside from family and friends*
I mean,
i find it troublesome.

Probably,
I see it in one point of view.
Because i came from a typical neighbourhood.
in a typical school.
so,
the perceptive of love is from what i see.

Now I have the ability to see more than what i see.
I see things in a different way.
I see whats infront and whats behind.
It now a 3-dimensional view.

I am glad of this change.
I think this is what maturity brings.
And i love that idea.

Back to so called my "love life"
I some how sense someone likes me.
Ok.
Maybe I am being 'paranoid'.
Or reading things wrongly.
Or thinking too much.
But I am just on my guard.

Whoever you are,
here is my stand
"I Am NOT Ready"

If you confess your feelings to me,
I hope you know how will i react.

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But than again,
when will one be ready?

I mean,
I always say that I am not ready an stuff.
But when will i be ready.

Using the concept of examination.
You will always feel like you are not ready.
No matter how much you have studied,
you will still feel not ready
coz you dont really know what is going to appear in the paper.
In examination,
you can at least prepare.
With the help of ten years series,
you roughly know what kind of storm is come toward you.

Unlike love,
there is no ten years series that can help you prepare for it.
Especially for a person like me,
i barely have any experience in it.
I know nuts about being in a relationship.
I know nuts what the 3 word sentence really means.
I am a fool nood in this situation.

all i can say is that,
i will never be ready.
never ever.

..

On the other side,
I guess i have become mean-er.
I mean,
I have said many mean things to people.
But i believe they are mostly meant to be jokes.
But some people take it too hard.
I am find with it.
If they are not happy with my mean jokes,
please acknowledge it.
I will stop if they want me to.

I realise,
when i get more vocal,
i get more mean.

All i can say is that,
all these means things have been in my head eversince ever.
Its just that i have been keeping it in me.
Now that i get more vocal,
i tend to let it out without thinking.
and those words just slashes peoples heart.
Now, with twitter,
it get even more vocal.
Coz it literally speaks my mind.
*to a certain extend. those dirty thoughts are not meant to be shared!*
hahahahah!

I even realise when i go out with my friends,
i made many bad remarks.
I dont know why,
but it some how became a part of me.

I think this is THE change that I do not want to see.
I think its the change that not everyone wants to see.

..

now that i am officially turning into an ADULT,
i wonder how it feels to be one.
i wonder how it feels or one adult think.

I am now working and thus surrounded by adults.
I really wonder what is in their mind.
Me,
what i believe to still holding on to a teenagers mind,
just want to have fun, go crazy and stuff like that.
But an adult...?

Do they still think about running around the field naked?
Or think about just wanting to stay at home and rest.
or how about those who are married?
or how about those with family?
what do our spouse think about?
what do our parents think about?

what is everyone thinking about?

I believe that some things,
only time have the answer.

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Resolution

2010-12-27T09:10:00.002+08:00

Here is MY 2010 resolution.

did you see it?
try going back up again.

Oh! I forgot!
I dont have a new years resolution.
I DONT NEED to come up with new year resolution.
The government will set it for me.
I mean I will be sentence to NS next year.
So,
what resolution do I NEED to make?
To be a better NSF as day pass by?
YAH RIGHT!

OKEY DOKEY!
No resolution for the next TWO YEARS!

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this pretty random thing

2010-12-26T21:35:00.004+08:00

Wonder the wonder.
Hahahah!

I am just being random.
okok.

I got loads to talk about.

A milestone in my life.
My virgin trip to the club!
hahahah!
Yeah!
Totally rocking!!!

Next is WORK!
Aiyoh...
hahaahh!
I added 2 of my colleague in FB.
Oooo kayyy....

Meaning they DO have access to my blog.
*actually everyone have access to my blog,
but its a matter of whether you know me or not.*
To my colleague,
HELLO!
hahahah

Next is my Christmas Celebration.
Christmas?
Do I even celebrate christmas?
hahaha
Here is my christmas;
Sleep throughout the day,
went to ikea, giant in tampines,
had caramel frappe at Mc Cafe.
Home, FB, MSN and SLEEP!

That was my Christmas!
"BEST" Christmas one can ever get!
Hahahah!

Anyway Ikea's hot dog is delicious.
But somehow feels rubbery.
But i like!
Coz its DIRTY CHEAP and DELICIOUS!!!
ROARR!!!

haahhaha!

I know i sounds a little kinky.
hahhaa!
Coz im listening to

currently.

Yeah!
One Hell of a sexy song!
Bring me to the dance floor and a pole.
I will give YOU
ENTERTAINMENT!
Purrr....

HAHAHAHAAHA!!!

anyway,
i cannot wait for the movie to be OUT!

I am SOOOO going to watch it!
by hook or by crook!

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Prince Syafiq J

love in a cab

2010-12-12T21:41:00.004+08:00

I am in love.
And I want to be loved.

I think its the most adorable thing I have ever watch.

I am very much in love with every single little things about the show.
Especially those part where the narrator
voice out those quotes that mimics a poetry.
Those poetry that reflects every significant moments.

It just melts my heart.

Its a very simple show but yet,
managed to reach out to my heart.

and the show is a good example how I want my love story to be.

Love.

Fate.

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TGIF or what??

2010-12-10T08:28:00.010+08:00

I am always early for work.

Nobody was in the office and I just have to have some fun in the office alone!

HHAHAAH!

Was blasting

Look at what happen!
hahha

Happy Friday!!

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unprepared for the coming

2010-12-07T14:38:00.003+08:00

3 more months.

What should I do??

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Men + Leggings = Meggings

2010-12-05T21:49:00.007+08:00

Men can wear what woMEN wear.

Thanx to meggings,
I cant probably add that into my wardrobe.

I was looking through my closet and found my tights
that i wore during my SYF in secondary school.

And YES i can still fit in.
hahaha!

And put it on and an idea struck me.
I recalled myself reading an article on Meggings.

I find it interesting.

Here is SS09 Givenchy Homme

My 'idol' is wearing it
the looks aint that bad,
but i love his shirt.
I think i should do something like that to one of my shirt too.
haha

So what do you think?
YES?
NO?

I think this style is kinda good for those conservative
Muslims guys who would love to wear shorts short.
hahahah
(just fyi, in islam, for men, it is considered private from the belly button all the way to the knees)

so, hey!
just put on your meggins,
cover your knees
and you are all fine!
hahah

try going to the mosque in that,
I am sure the people inside are fine with it.
hahhahah

I think commonly it is worn underneath a shorts.
and worn till below the knees.
if i were to wear them,
I think i would probably couple it with a pair of boots.
Than, it will make me look abit more manlier.
hahha

BUT omg!
walking in boots is a killer!
hahah

That day I went to town in boots.
1st thing is that the boots are already heavy.
secondly, it dont grip feet.
so its very tiring to walk on boots.

But for the sake of fashion,
I will do anything!

Coming back to meggings,
I dont know if i can pull it off or not.
coz i have "women are dying for my leg" 'size'.
aka skinny legs.
so,
if have tried putting them on,
it some how enhances my skinniness.
and
MEN and SKINNY
DO NOT go hand in hand.

Men should be all buff and fit.
NOT SKINNY.

On a side note,
I some how agree with one of the blogger says,

If you are...

Good looking + Skinny = Pass
(At least your face looks good, so passable!)

Good looking + Fat = Fail
(Unless you slim down, but if not, the world is so superficial!
If you're fat, usually people won't notice you, or notice you for the wrong reason!)

Good looking + Muscular = Perfect
(What can I say? Nothing but.. Perfecto!)

Ugly + Skinny = Fail
(Sorry, if you're skinny and look horrible... OUT!)
*this is where i belong*

Ugly + Fat = Fail
(The world is practical! Sorry!)

Ugly + Muscular = Pass
(Even if you don't like the looks, but you got the body and size, you're counted as
passable cause it covers and make it up for it! And some girls love it!)

*extracted from typicalben*

on another side note,
I AM SICK AND TIRED OF WEARING FORMAL TO WORK EVERYDAY!!
URGH!!
I am half way there,
and i am OFFICIALLY SICK AND TIRED OF WORK!!
LIKE TO THE CORE!
or TTM!

URGH!!!

3 more months Syafiq!
3 more freaking months!!

AHHHHHHH!!!!!

ok.
back to the meggings,
I might be wearing it out one day.
IF i have the guts to!
hahah!

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aNGER + rOCK = rock ON!!!

2010-12-05T00:52:00.004+08:00

Thanks to fashion.
I meet new findings.

Was watching some fashion show online.
Instead of my eyes watching it,
my ears were having its 'sharp' moments.

I subconsciously was humming to the song that was being played while watching.
Only after the whole show,
I was searching for the song.

and to my 'omg'
i fell in love.
fell in love with the musicians.

Apocalyptica

They are like WOW!
Have you ever seen emo, black metal guys using cello
as part of their music???

Usually you will see
a man in a nice suit playing the cello,

But this one is emo guys.

This song is very familiar

if you do listen to rock song last time,

Metallica sang that song

Yeah...
all the old folks must have love them.
They were popular in the late 80s early 90s if im not wrong
coz i know my older cousins and brother who are in their mid-late 20s
are so into them.
and i was so young that time,
i cant be bothered by all these rock songs.

anyway i am favour this song

I some how feel like mashing up the 2 songs by
Nothing Else Matters and Fade To Black.
And use it for my choreo.

How nice would it be???

I mean comparing to Bulletproof by Kerli,
that one is also a rock song.

OMG!
Since I love these 3 songs,
why not I mash them up together???

But hmm..
How am I going to go about doing that?

hahah!

If you realise,
most of the songs are pretty rock, emo songs.
Reason being it is easier to fire out anger feelings
as compared to happy feelings.

I am just going to tap onto those feelings that are easy to reach out.
Not everyone are optimistic.
We always have bad thoughts.
So, why not just squeeze those 'bad' feelings since it is very convenient.

And I am not those people who are angry all the time.
Have you guys ever seen me going berserk shouting angrily?
I dont think so.
So yah.

I am going to let it out through my dance.

I am really hopping i have the time to do all these.
And I hope I cant do it well
and make it a success!

JIA YOU!!!

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Prince Syafiq J

ultimate NOT READY!

2010-11-30T09:10:00.004+08:00

I don't want to face tomorrow.
But tomorrow have to choice but to face me.
So do I.

December come.
Next month is a new year.
Aiyayayaya!

DECEMBER!
YAH!

3 more month before the key down and bless me with the new number.
1

20 now.

That makes me TWENTY ONE.
In 3 months time.

THREE MONTHS TIME PEOPLE!
3 FREAKING MONTHS!

Oh God!
*going to faint*
*hand on forehead*
*lean back a bit*
*eyes roll back a bit*

OH-MY-GOD!!!!

I SERIOUSLY CANNOT BELIEVE
I am turning 21!!

I feel so old!!!
(yet so young)

OMG!
I FEEL OLD!!!
I FEEL.....
errr...

This cannot be.
I dont feel 21!

err..
how should a 21-er feel?

Whatever it is,
I am not ready!
I am NOT ready to be 21!
NO!!
and NEVER WILL BE!

AHHHH!!!!

Oh GOD!

Can you just let me be Twenteen!
or at least 16 or 18...

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A different route.

2010-11-24T08:34:00.003+08:00

I am OH-SO-FREAKING PROUD of my freaking self!
Like TOTALLY!!!

I freaking pass my NAPFA test!
MUAHAHAHHA!
LIKE FINALLY YES!!!

And i think i got a GOLD BABY!!!
Like never ever in my whole entire life i get a gold.
it has always been a bronze or silver.
Never a gold.

I am freaking elated.
I was like on cloud 9 when I saw all my results.

let me see what i did,
Sit-Ups: 47
Standing Broad Jump: 238
Sit & Reach: 45
Pull-Ups: 5
Shuttle Run: 10.2
2.4km: Dont know.

I tell you i am surprised by all my work myself.
Like I unknowingly can jump far,
unknowingly can reach out far,
unknowingly can carry myself,
unknowingly can run faster.

AHHHHHHHH!!!!
HAHAHHAHA!

I am so freaking happy man!!
I seriously dont know how I get standing broad jump up tp 238.
Like wow!

Previously I only jump up to 210.
20cm further makes a BIG difference man!

And and my sit and reach.
hahah!
People say im flexible just coz i a dancer.
when im NOT.

Previously i only managed to stretch to 30cm there.
now is 45.
WOW or WHAT???

Pull-up was the best.
Same thing to my 2.4km.

Seems like all those training were all worth it.
like really.
Though i was tired after work.
I still pull it through and never fail to train.

this is what i call it
DETERMINATION!

hahaahhha!
YEAH!

I think its good that I am working now and not schooling.
Coz if i were to school,
i wouldnt have time to train.
I will be back home late due to dance or something else.
On top of that, still have to do homework and study if i have UT.

So you see.
This is what I like about work.
After work is PURE free time.
No work no nothing.
all the time is yours.

AHHHHHHHH!!!!
IM FREAKING HAPPY!!

I was so happy and full of energy,
i still can do a 'victory' dance in the shower.
hahahha
yeah!
played some music in the toilet,
shower and dance!
hahhahaahah

know my success in my napfa test,
i am kinda aiming to branch out my 'ability circle'

I have been doing arts based activity ever since ever.
Now I kinda want to pursue into sports.

Eversince young,
i never really liked sports.
Soccer and stuff dont fit me.
Now, i am all grown up,
full of energy,
I SHOULD make use of it right?

I have alwasy like cycling.
I want to try long distance cycling.
Or if not,
I also want to try out biathlon or triathlon.

When it comes to sports,
jogging/ running, cycling, and swimming has always been my cup of tea.

Then comes badminton,
captains ball, basketball, and some others.

What do you think?

This way, i can pretty much be an all rounder.
hahahah

....

work is getting a little fun.
maybe only to a certain extend.
reason being that a lot of designing to be done.
My big boss is asking me to design the office wall mural,
design and come up with the concept for the staff resting area,
design the standee for the passanger,
so many!
hahah

Just because I can use photoshop,
they ask me to do it.

But some how,
it is extracting the inner designer in me.
hahaha
yah.
I feel like further study in design.

I have always been interested in designing.
but i am just afraid to go for it coz in singapore,
designing and arts isnt that flourish.

I am afraid, I dont do well in it.
and how am i going to make end meets when i dont work properly?

That is why I enter the Tourism Industry.
I believe that it is much safer as Singapore feeds on the industry to survive.
All these tourist are our employee.
We get them into singapore and spend spend spend.

Even if I dot get into the tourism industry,
i can always fall back on business.
Because in events management, business also plays apart.
Thus, if it dont work,
i already have my contingency plan layed out.

.

In life, you have to see things in different light.
.

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do you know

2010-11-21T14:13:00.002+08:00

You walk down the street.
Your eyes scan through every beautiful faces.
Faces of different shapes and sizes.

Eyes meet eyes.
A stare.
A moment.
A meaning.

Time took its break.
What is seconds feels like hours, days, weeks, months and years,

A question.

'Is this the right one?'

An attempt to decipher what it means.
Decipher what does your eyes means.
Decipher what does you heart means.
Decipher what does everything means.

No meaning.

and the almost winner came in last in the run.

.

We meet.
We talked.
We danced.
We shared.
We fought.
We bickered.
We kissed.
We walked.

'Is this the right one?'
'Are you the one?'
'Am I your want?'
'Am I your needs?'

'How do I know?'

There is no apparent label.
I see no classification with my bear eyes.

People say, "Seeing Is Believing"

But I don't see it.
How do I believe it?

How can I believe what these eyes dont capture?

The question,

"How do i know you are the right one?"

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sigh

2010-11-08T14:27:00.003+08:00

If I am like this now, how will I be in the future?
One big lesson ought to be learn.

my heart is deep down under the deep blue sea.
almost reaching the sea bed where it is pitch dark.

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princesyafiqj

cheap or not?

2010-11-07T01:02:00.007+08:00

I simply LOVE cheap stuff!
MUAHHAHAH!

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PrinceSyafiqJ

I swam across, I jumped across for you

2010-11-06T03:59:00.004+08:00

Its so funny that he don't 100% believe in love.
He don't 100% trust in love.
but its ironic as it seems like his soul is longing for it.

Longing for that special someone.
Longing for that hand to hold.
Longing for that hug and that
'I Love You'

But he is not ready.

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im not bulletproof

2010-11-01T00:23:00.003+08:00

If i were to choreography,
I would use this song.

Just a simple touch, just a little clutch
Makes me feel like flying
But where are you tonight?
Something isn't right
Can you please stop hiding?

I am trying not to think about
All the things you did before
But sometimes it all just gets to me
I can't fake it anymore

I'll stay with you but remember
And be careful what you do
'Cause I'm not bulletproof

In your secret place, staring into space
Leaves me feeling frozen
I just need to feel that what we have is real
And I'm the one you've chosen

I am trying not to think about
All the things you did before
But sometimes it all just gets to me
I can't fake it anymore

I'll stay with you but remember
And be careful what you do
'Cause I'm not bulletproof

I am trying not to think about
All the things you did before
But sometimes it all just gets to me

I can't fake it anymore

I'll stay with you but remember
And be careful what you do
'Cause I'm not bulletproof

And I'm not bulletproof
(And I'm not bulletproof)
And I'm not bulletproof
(And I'm not bulletproof)

I'm not bulletproof
(And I'm not bulletproof)
I'm not bulletproof
(And I'm not bulletproof)
I'm not bulletproof

(I am trying not to think about)
I'm not bulletproof
(But sometimes it all just gets to me)
I'm not bulletproof

(I'll stay with you but remember)
I'm not bulletproof
('Cause I'm not bulletproof)
I'm not bulletproof
('Cause I'm not bulletproof)
I'm not bulletproof

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Unwritten Moments.

2010-10-31T20:13:00.018+08:00

This goes way back to before fasting month.

Canberra Secondary School 10th Year Anniversary.

I wonder if anyone still remember this small boy.

...
Mummy & Mummy tiri's birthday @ Orchard

...
Youth Olympic Game.
Its about sports but not me.
Its DANCE TIME!!

...

Hasidies Birthday and Class 95 Movie at the Park.

my new shirt that i made.
got the idea from lookbook!

...

Salvation Army with classmates.

...

Aniq's 1st Birthday

...

Breakfast at Swensens with RP DIEM

...

SOH Student Ambassador Photoshoot!

...

DIEM Raya 2010

Some of those that were not noted down here.

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Are you ready? coz im not.

2010-10-24T21:57:00.004+08:00

I have this fear.
This phobia.
This dislike.

about love.
actually not about love.
its more about relationship.
actually not really about relationship.
its more about the people who are in the relationship.

Its about.
Me and You.
About Me and You going against each other.

Everytime I hear couple quarreling,
I will be like,
oh my...

*roll eyes*

Must I go through that if I were to enter the relationship?
Must I quarell?
Is it necessary?
Must we go against each other because of certain matter?

sigh...

that is what i do not want to face in a relationship.
I know its inevitable to

my thinking is like,
"What ever lah! If you want to be with me, then be with me.
I can't be bothered quarreling.
If you want to break up, go ahead.
I shall not was my time facing unhappiness.
Life is too short to be in misery."

Well,
one thing for sure,
if ever human being's mind set is like that,
everyone will be single forever.

Maybe for now,
me being single and inexperience in relationship,
may face things that way.
Probably I will get a different view of the city if i were in someone else house.

For now,
though I am yearning for that somebody.
Have this strong desire to be drenched in love.

I am still not ready.
Not ready for anything.

I am not ready
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I am not ready
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I am not ready
I am not ready

.....

Lets not talk about love.
Class 95 really have a big influence in my subtle brain.
But I still love listening to Class 95 love song.
I listen to it everyday before sleep.
It feels soothing.
Makes me feel calm.
That is how i perceive love is now.
ookok
stop it!

...

Lets talk about life.
Now this is the equation of my life now.

YES!
see it?

Half of my life is dedicated to work.
My internship.
The other half is dance.
and a minor portion to fashion.
and ARTS!

hahhaha

Intership is fine.
Everyone is good.
People in the office are all good people!
I mean it.
Except for one.
Mr _ _ _ _ _

Irritating man!
He is a good person,
but he gives me this naturally
'i am irritating vibe'
And i think some other people in the office also dont like him.
So its not only me ok!
hahahh!

Other than that,
things are fine.

.................................................

stop for awhile coz im hungry.
guess what!
I am such a lazy pig!
I took the instant noodle (NOT the cup one)
soak them in hot water (no where near boiling)
let it 'cook' for awhile.
knowing its not hot enough.
i put them in the microwave for awhile
hahaha
den the water damn hot.
(still not boiling)
hahahaha
pour the water out,
put in the seasoning.
VUALLA!
my maggi mee goreng!
hahahah!
This is how lazy i can be.
I need a wife who can work like a maid.
OPPS!
nono.
i mean a very hard working wife...
hahhaahahaahahhahah!

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Only after one week,
I know what i am.
AO!
Airport Operations.
hahha
but currently,
everyone are using me here and there.
But its fine with me.
This way i will learn alot!
like really really alot!
here and there and EVERYWHERE!

And currently,
i am focusing on Estate Management.
Sound cool right?

The first time i enter the office,
my supervisor was introducing me to the estate management people
and i was like eww..
sound so boring...

GOD must be angry with me.
So he gave me that job.
HHAHAHAHA!

But so far its kinda ok..
very very very interesting!
LITERALLY!
*no sarcasm coz i mean it*

and i really learn a lot from it.

Do you know those chair you seat in the airport,
there are test to see its durability?
What they do is that there is a machine that will rub the fabric.
How they rub the fabric, i dont know.
but i know that some have 5000 rubs, over 30000 rub.
YAH!
So those 30000 rub will be more expensive.
So the reason why some of the stuff are expensive is because of these test.
It is more durable, that is why it is more expensive.
this is what i call is QUALITY!

hahhahha

and there are many other things that i learn.
but i am not going to spill them all here

some are CONFIDENTIAL!
yeah.
The one any only contract i sign with them
DISCLOSURE of CONFIDENTIALITY
something like that.
hahahaha

No other contract or rules, nothing.
hahahhaah
Means i am free to do anything i want to!
hahaha

....

and yes!
MUSE!

This time I dont really have time to publicise it.
busy with work what...
Yeah!

This time is different.
You wont be able to see the 'one and only boy' dancing among the girls anymore.
hahhha
not anymore
but just for this time.

Coz this boy will be with other boys.
and girls ofcourse.
hahhaa
yeah...

i will be with Malay Dance!
YES!

one note,
PLEASE BE PUNCTUAL!
Coz mine will be the first item.
YEAH!
if you are late,
forget about watching,
coz i wont be there.
hahhahahahah!

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sorry. nerd wins!

2010-10-18T12:16:00.001+08:00

I am proud to be a nerd.

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adam & eve

2010-10-17T23:28:00.003+08:00

Adam.
You are made from 7 different soil
from different parts of earth.

Eve.
You are made from Adam.
A part of Adam.
A part of Adams ribs.

Why ribs?
Because its the center of the body.
Because it near to the heart.
Because both Adam and Eve are meant to be treated
EQUALLY.

and LOVE is equal.

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its not you. its me.

2010-10-15T23:25:00.003+08:00

Hello you.
Do you know my feelings for you?

I own this little treasure box.
It contain all those little things I like about you.
Well,
This treasure box will always be kept hidden from civilisation.

I don't intend to let go of the key to someone who I will hurt.
Its not you.
Its me.

Considering,
I am neither here nor there.
This Insecurity.
This Instability.
This Vulnerability.
This Uncertainty.

'This' will hurt you.
Will break you heart into million pieces.
Million pieces that it beyond the bound of possibility.

I shall keep this treasure.
And allow you to run for your own happiness.
I will be there.
Be there as friend.
Just a friend.

Nothing more.
Nothing less.

Because love, can either make or break someones heart.

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define me.

2010-10-10T18:38:00.003+08:00

OMG!I never know this applicable!

hahaha!

Tall?
Handsome?
Mysterious?
Gorgeous?
AMAZING??!
(on bed? hahhah)

Oh well...
What else can i say...?
The dictionary says it.
I cant defy that right?

HAHAHAHAHAH!

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mind

2010-10-10T17:12:00.002+08:00

Here is what is on my mind currently.

Wanting to blog about my Bintan trip,
but kinda lazy to do that.

I want to go shopping.
I am all stuck up in work!
Urgh!!!

I am looking forward for wednesday!
Meeting the RP girls for dinner.
Probably in town.
Hopefully it really takes place coz i have not been to town for a month.
hahaha
yeah.
I need some time out man!

I am kinda bored of working.
I need some LIFE!

you know life!

Working is mundane as a whole.
I feel like everyone's secretary!
Syafiq, do this!
Syafiq, do that!
Syafiq!
Syafiq!
Syafiq!

I wonder how will they survive without the existance of this
LOWLY PAID intern!

its like only freaking $440!
Like hello!!!
could you like at least round it off to $450?!

at least $500 sounds kinda better.

its so low,
that after a thorough calculation,
its $1.74 per hour!

HOW PATHETIC can that be??
I mean like,
the cleaner pay is higher than me.
Even the part timers pay in McDonald is MORE than me!

sigh...

lets see what im going to do with my money.
$440.
$52 will go to my transportation, bus concession.
maybe top up $20 for MRT fares.

Than $28 for my prepaid card.

Basically,
that is the basic necessity.
Since I am working already,
my dad say, this one you pay yourself!

$100 spent!
im left with $340.

ok.
i dont feel like blogging.

will continue.

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dog days are over

2010-09-26T18:20:00.003+08:00

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White Collar.

2010-09-22T20:31:00.004+08:00

Alright.
'Busy' IS my middle name.
hahaha

Before I fantasize about my trip to Bintan,
I will tell you about my horror.

Ok.
Its not much of a horror.
But its is fine.

What else other than my attachment of course??!
Yes...

What I hate the most about it is just the LOONNNNGG journey trip to work.
I takes like about 1hour and 30minutes!
That is like 90 freaking minutes.
multiply by 2 equals to 180 minutes!
I spend a total of 180 minutes travelling.
No!
Sitting on the bus,
looking silly while I was asleep!

The first day was oklah..
I didnt expect much.
Just pretty neutral.

I was posted to Operation at the Budget Terminal.

YES!
Some kind of OPERATIONS!
HELLO!
This is EVENTS student.
NOT OPERATION!

My department or my office basically over look the whole of Budget Terminal.
From the air plane, to the tiny dust that is stuck in between the keyboard at internet kiosk.

YES!
Literally EVERYTHING.
We are the mother of all Budget Terminal.
The heart of the Budget Terminal.
The brain of the Budget Terminal
The hands, nose, eyes, ears, skin, cells, intestine, private part of the Budget Terminal.

HAHAH!

This is my final statement for my workplace.
Work sucks but the people don't.

Yeah.
My appointed supervisor kinda rocks.
I mean work work.
But he also got that 'slack' element in him.
hahaha!
Yeah.

On the first day,
it was like 615.
He told me to go home.
Told me its already late.
*work ends at 6*
yah.

He himself also leave at that time.
My colleague even better.
550 you pack up.
559 get ready to go.
6 den go.
hahhaa!

FUNNY!

I think this is what typical white collar workers face everyday in singapore.
Kinda interesting.
And now i know how it feels like to WORK.
Yeah.

This is what you do not face in school.
Maybe the 'i am waiting for this time to go home' is the same.
But its in the different environment.
Like school,
once school is over,
you still got homeworks, cca and other school related stuff.
but work,
WHAT DO YOU HAVE?

NOTHING!

All i need to do is to go home,
rest and wake up again next day for work.

Thats life of a white collar workers.

Basically as of today,
its my 3rd day.

1st day, I was asked to read the "bible" of Changi Airport passenger service.
YAH!
It was like reading an A4 size dictionary.

I was only browsing through though.

Then my supervisor gave me work.
Data entry.
Find the percentage of the carpark occupancy.
For the whole of 3 years, month by month.
2008-2010.

YES!
I was like Ctrl C, Ctrl V.
Yeah..
dats all.

Then the next day,
someone else gave me another work.
Filing.
I need to come up with the content page for the things i am going to file in.
And its about ISO 140001.
Yes.
I dont know what that is,
just follow like a cute little duckling tailing his mother duck.

Talking about duck,
just now my colleague we discussing about duck being halal or not halal.
And frog being halal or not also.
Den duck egg.
Crab.
hahahh!

YAH!
I was the only Malay there.
So,
I am responsible for the 'Islamic' explanation.
hahhahaa

back to my work,
2nd day was good.
For lunch,
we went to T3 transit.
My first time in T3 ever since before the official opening.
And first time in the transit area.
I tell you..
OH MY GOD!

The place is so big and beautiful!!!
And like,
I was awed by the architecture.

We ate at the Hard Rock Cafe.
And OMG!
So cheap!
Staff promotion.
Only $9.99!!!

Drink, main meal and dessert.
And the dessert was Haagen Dazs ice cream.
ahh...

My first time eating at Hard Rock Cafe and first time eating Haagen Dazs ice cream.
OMG!

AND AND AND the best part is....
its FREE!!

My colleague had $50 voucher.
and there was 5 of us.
So,
i forked out not a single cents.
HAHHAHAHHHAHAHAH!

And oh yah,
the cafe is right by the viewing mall.
So,
right beside the cafe, you can see one magnificent, gargantuan
aeroplane!!

I was like OMG!
I have got to be dreaming!!!!

HAHAHHAHA!
It was a good experience.
and i am loving it!

Dats what i like about working in the airport.
and not to mention the duty free shop in transit area!

HAHHAAHAHH!!!!

I saw Pedro, Aldo shoe...
I am like ahhh...
I think there is stil gst.
but there MIGHT be staff discount.
I need to check that out 1st.

I am not a 'branded' kind of person,
but the sound of DISCOUNT!
so enticing!!

OMG!
I am soo going to shop there one day.
and i want to buy perfume.

And i got a lucky supervisor who got contacts and can get things at a very cheap price.
YEAH!
and ironically,
he is carrying an LV messenger bag!

What else can i say...?
hmm....

...

next thing,
should i, or shouldn't i go for dance.
They have configure the practise time to later,
so that those working can practise also.
and also over the weekend like saturday afternoon.

hmm..
its only a month...
before the main performance.
MUSE 3.

hmm..
maybe i should...
i mean,
when else can i exercise?

well,
working has been an experience.

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Prince Syafiq J

2010-09-19T00:45:00.001+08:00

Fashionspiration

2010-09-08T12:44:00.006+08:00

He is thin.
He is short.
He is small.

He is my Fashionspiration!

Presenting...

My ultimate inspiration.
Standing at 155cm.
Weighing at 39kg.

How can he not be my inspiration?

Just look at him!
Look at the confidence he owns!

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but

2010-09-05T17:28:00.003+08:00

Does freedom exist in the world?

No.
It does not.

However,
I am craving for it.
I want to be as free as the birds soaring in the sky.

I want to get out of my shell and live life the fullest.

But...
There is always a but.
How can we human eliminate the existence of 'but' in the dictionary.

It is the presence of 'but' that hold us back.

Can you see the power of 'but'?
How powerful can this 'but' be?

I want to be taller, but...
I want to be clever, but...
I want to be like ___, but...

How can one get rid of this obstacle?

By living in pretend?
Faking the state of fact of existing?
Make believe that it does not exist?

Well,
it is going to be an irritant in your life some day or another.
And you will be pouring out buckets of tears over that bridge of pretend.

Can we be free?

I want to be free.
I want to be free.
I want to be free.

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WHATS IN me

2010-09-05T15:16:00.002+08:00

I seriously HATE myself now.
Like totally hate to the core!
Like TTM!
(still remember my conversation with shah. TTM is To The Max and NOT Tourism Travel Management)

UT3 is coming.
Like tomorrow.

And it will be my LAST UT ever in my whole entire life in RP.
My last UT
and I am not doing justice by not giving my all for the last lap.

This is my one and only last run which will determine my final grade.
Its like taking your 'N's or 'O's
but you are NOT studying for it.

And my grades aren't so good.
If i Do very well in this UT,
It will really help to buck up my Grade.

With a better grade,
I can go to a better school IF i were to further my studies in Uni.

I don't know lah.
its just irritating.

I am just not the person whom i use to be when I was in year 1 and 2.
I have become lazier then ever.
Studies aint that as important before.
I mean it is still important but not as much.

Holiday suck.
coz like that is when i get lazier.
And this holiday,
I have been feeding my ego on the silver platter.
My ego have been living in luxury these days.

And that is not a good thing.
and NEVER!

Procrastinate is my best friend now.
Lazy is my middle name.
anything associate to all of them
are in me.

Urgh!

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half of thy face

2010-09-01T02:14:00.005+08:00

have i ever told you about my ugly incident.
yeah.
i didnt.
i almost totally forget about it.

It happen long long time ago.
when i was very young.
i think when i was in my pre school of younger.

I was at my aunts house.
I dono what happen,
everyone when to the room where my late grandma was.
i was standing behind my aunt who was holding a hot iron.

YES!
you know it! you know what is going to happen.

I was unfortunately at the height of where the iron is.
When she turn around,
the iron just nicely iron this beautiful face of mine.
and yah..
i think the left side of my face faced minor burns..

dats all i remember.
and i also remember me having ugly scars on my face.
yah...

have to apply medicine on my face everyday.
it got so bad, that i had to go for plastic surgery.

when i was around 8 or 9,
it was still there...
my parents decided to send me to the doctor to
"clean" my face.

so half of my face is practically plastic.
not plastic, plastic.
its just fake.

and im faking about this.
hahhaa
everything was real except for the plastic surgery part!
hahahahahahah!

the iron on the face and stuff do happen.
hahhaha!
the scars are gone anyway...

Now its going to be ugly again.
Thanx to the teenage hormones
happily producing mountains or pimples!

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